Poems: Good, Bad and Ugly!

1998

2005-02-27T12:47:00.000-08:00

LONAVALA 1997

The hills are silent
and the waters speak
The butterflies are dancing
The honey bees sleep

The sense of timelessness
in the slumber of nature
The green leaves and
the beautiful stream

Here I am lying and dreaming of thee
As the hills are alive with memories
that we never shared
I will let this moment pass with glee
Or just let time cease
And love you endlessly

Your eyes are radiant
and your gaze speaks
Your life is vibrant
But your emotions sleep

Here I stand to watch your fancied whim
Too proud to let go and weep

GLAD I FOUND YOU©

'glad I found you-lost were thee?
"the jewel"-a diamond’s envy,
A wonder
mother earth’d agree.

In the whispering leaves of a pine groove up north
The whirlwind glides on calm Caribbean seas
A hurricane: as a trawler would split
In a passion thy name that is insanity

In the purity of a snowball
In the tenderness of a drop of dew
In the softness of a flowing breeze
In the way that only I have known you

You blew from soft to extreme
In wake and in deep slumbered dream
And the centuries that I have known you
I have always adored, cherished,
admired and loved you

THE AWKWARD FEELING©

I long for your sight
Those beautiful eyes
Forever awaiting
A sparkle of a smile

A phone-call
An eternity away
Missing and uneasy
Powerful, intense
An uncanny feeling

The warmth of your smile
The ease, the poise and flow
A halo of a persona
The grace your glow

The tenderness of the moon
The freshness of June
The purity of your soul
Its a pity I lost you.

YOUR EYES ARE MY REASON TO LIVE©

Your Eyes Are My Reason To Live
The air that I breathe
The illusion that I dream
And at nights I wake up
By the beauty of your face
The pink smile
Those twinkle of your eyes
Your hands are so tender
And the hair is so nice
It flows like waterfalls
That’s melted from the ice
As the sun warms your soul
Your life makes my life
worth living
Your skin is so soft
And the glow is so bright
Your presence in my life
Is the presence of dew
in the desert at light
You are the rose that
in my barren life grew
If only you knew
If only you knew

SOUL MATE©

Out of the skies of jet black midnight
Came the star most bright
And life-mine - the eternity of darkness
Is filled now with flaming light

And the love that’s here
To the heart most dear
In the inky mist - unsettling
Comes the dawn most clear

Comes from the holy gates
A ivory ray to my heart straight
Eyes blink to brightness inure
Recognise my soul-mate

THE NIGHT OF 23. SEPTEMBER 1997©
The skies have burst open
But star there is none
Showers of your secret love
May someday make us one

You are the air I breathe
& my most beautiful dream
The love that I seek
My most fancied whim

How can one not love you
It's pure, clean, beautiful
sparkling, fiery, calibred
proud & true
The love that I feel for you
Can you feel it too.

STEALING GLANCES©

Stealing glances
In the midst
of human crowd

Among the chatter
of computer lingo
I look at
your beautiful face

I take in as you
opiate my senses
Your cascading hair
And clear eyes

The fair little nose
And your sparkling eyes
Your secret, shy smile
Is it for me?
Or are you just laughing at life
Endlessly!

ROSE©
Your laughter has the
innocence and freshness anew
Like mountains full of roses
bathed in dew

Its a sin to notice
what's real but not true
When one should have affections
Where they are not due

WHERE ARE YOU TODAY©
Not seeing you is a feeling
that can be explained
But I’ll try
It’s an unfulfilling feeling
with a little bit of pain
Its rather dry

DARKNESS©
Darkness and dark gray sky
Hostile thunder and unkind sky
Throwing fire and showers
Electricity talks and water flies

What’s in September
should have been in July
Your coldness
meets my lack of faith
And I hate the games we have to play
Yes, No, Maybe.
Maybe Not.
The games go on.

DREAMS©
I still catch a glimpse of you sometimes
On nights in a dream within a dream
I convict me of the love that’s a crime
As I gaze at you in the golden stream

SOMETIMES©
You give a look sometimes.
Sometimes half a smile.
Sometimes gazes, frequent!
Sometimes sheer indifference.
Some looks take a while
You sit there in front of me
Confused
As I blush.
A genuine smile
touches your soft lips
A hidden mischief reaches your eyes

STARS©
There are the stars
They look so near
& the waves
The wind blows clear
& the sand
Wish you were here
And I
In your arms
I feel a glint of a tear
A sacred purity
It feels so clean
& emotions taken over
by your dreams
The wind blows clear
The feelings feel far fetched
and real
Sky is a purple hue
A shade of yellow
A touch of blue
A hint of red too
And then
There is you.

Pure and clean
My holiest dream

Purity as I smell the winds
Purity as I live my whim

And what I feel for you
Is true in the truest of trues

LOVE YOU
Love you more than the stars in the skies
Love you more than it rains in July

More than the sun
that dips deep
in the western oceans
And planets
that flow in their circular motion

Love you forever
Today
Tomorrow
Yesterday

More than words can feel
Or thoughts can say

On humid eves
And sunny days

Like birds love to fly
Or fishes that swim
in tides

I love you from deep within
the deepest of my insides
And the volcano it
stirs within can forever drive me wild

A LIGHT
9:20 am 26 September 1997
Soft silentness
echoes my room
Gently,
I wake from sleep
& soon
I remember you
& your presence
in my life
The rain splitter-splatters
in a West-Indian rhythm
From gray mass of menace
& gloom
comes a light to my mind
A ray called Rose
A love that’s true

1997
LADY DIANA, PRINCESS OF WALES
1961 - 1997
[3:50 p.m. of 1st September 1997]

Her spirit graced alike the gold and coal
The broken hearts and wounded souls
Loved she, the unloved, uncared
And people who were a broken whole

A beauty that no one knew
Did not see through nor understood
A humble majesty
A peoples crown
And the world weeps
The universe is sad
The queen is dead
The queen is dead.

Blue is the sky
And the air is dead
Black is the dusk that glooms
And black is the red

A angel that once walked the earth
The queen is dead

And not just in name
nor in royal blood
Just her eyes that cried
for the weak as
she carried the eternal flame
and the kindness that forever flood

From dawn to dusk
From day to day
From wake to bed

The queen is dead
The queen is dead

And come alive a thousand nights
And not a single day
Cause life is dead
and the heavens are alive
The pain is great
The queen is dead.

THE LIGHT THAT SHINES NO MORE

A soft touch
on harsh seas
and storms
A soft flame
A gentle form
And to the cold
and the alone
she spread a light
And kept them warm

A princess that no one
knew
saw through
Nor understood
A charm
that held the arm
Of lonely and misunderstood
A life that’s now far and gone
A long night without a morn
The princess’ gone
O’ she’s gone.
As sun silently leaves
the dawn
.
PERFECT STRANGERS
We knew each other
a stranger now,
smiles politely

We loved
And now a vacuum
defines
What we feel

We cared
And nothing remains
Only emptiness holds us
together

Who are you... What happened
Only losses and losses
again and again

A thought as you I see
How empty are we...
How empty are we...

MISTAKES
Lets learn from our mistakes
and carry on
Not get stuck in a rut
that we call our own
O Lord in heaven
Let me go on
Not follow a mirage
that only I can see
Lord let me be me
Not a shadow
Nor someone else’s decree
Not somebody’s whim
based on their family tree
Not somebody’s fancy
Give me a life
Set me free
Give me a life
And let me be me.

WHERE ARE THE PEOPLE
Where are the people
that I called my own
Where is the crown, the sceptre
and that jewel-studded throne
Where is the splendour
and the golden horizon
As I live in the coffin
in the graveyard called life
Where are my own?
Where is my tribe?

YOUR EYE WANTS TO CATCH MY EYE
Your eye wants to catch my eye
There's the hope for a smile
There's a tear unexplained
There's an excuse for pain
Your obsession is insane

But Rose my dear,
I've spend my life in tears
And they don't corrode me
like acid could
Only feel fear
of falling in love again

'Cause I no longer want
to deal in pain
No longer need to carry
poison within
that softly kills
The proposition is insane

So we will meet between life's
tender joys and sorrows
You coldness has destroyed my heart
We'll meet someday, somewhere in the morrow

Such is life
And cruel is fate
Love is soft
And hard is hate
I have waited long enough
It's your turn to wait

A WOMAN LOVES ONCE

A woman loves once
& loses forever
& recreates no magic
no percent
of original desire
it is her decree
to live a vague promise
in a nowhere land
a near miss
to none a target
in the desert sands
No quench of thirst
a compromise
she calls her life
& completes with diamonds
& gold
she loves once & lost forever.
And quietly she grows old

MY LOVE IS ....

my love is ....
madness
overflowing
with
obsession
&
an eternal passion
softness and a
touch of arrogance
risky & yet it's tender
insecure & sensitive
its insane
it lasts forever

ROSES IN WINTER
Roses in December
They bleed and tell
an old tale
Forgotten
Yet throbbing
in the vague grounds
of memory

As dew would drop on
desert sands
And flakes of snow
simply pretend
Of heartbeats that got out
of hand
Long time ago
Just once
A chance
A chance
A chance.

THE GLITTER OF THE HUMAN RACE Saturday, January 03, 1998

Each smiled under a million lights
Their roar of laughter seized a might
Happiness to crown their mirage and hype.
Joy to add a dash of flight.
Each tried.
Each lied.

Life betrayed each one of them
Even those who could apprehend
The king, the pauper
The knight and the joker
The lord of vast boundless lands
The assassin, the farmer
The vile and the lover
The rosy lady and the iron man
The priest, the sinner
The serf and the soldier
Even those who could understand
Even those who had the proverbial knack
Life broke their robust, mighty backs

Each smile: a hollow, hopeless lie
Each twinkle: a vain pretence
Love laughed at their faces
And hopes died
While affections
lived an unearthly disgrace
In the midst of questionable joy
Life left without a trace of trace
And Yet they smiled
Happy with varnished truths
Content in self-fulfilling lies
Afraid to accept the blatant truth
Afraid to acknowledge and cry
They cheated
None but their own selves
They knew.
Whom can we blame ?
Not them for their sordid
super claims
Not them for their stupid
power games
Not them. They are too lame.

As laughter: a disguise used
For a sigh , a tear
A potent shame ,
whom can we blame?

Life set a poignant trap
In every eye carved a deficient dream
In every rank, a hollow frame
A silly, fruitless, unfaithful game

A farce, the human life became
Pride, without substantial claim
Hypocrisy, an eternal flame
Greed, lust and infinite pain

Whom can we trust ?
Whom can we blame?
An unfinished shadow
which has no name

Whom can we love?
Whom can we tame?
Life's innumerable sorrows
Or life's innumerous games.

THE EVE IS THIRSTING FOR YOUR LOVE
The eve is thirsting for your love
And the grey clouds kissing
the rainbow of a hue
The red, the purple, the yellow and the blue
Your smile is the only true thing in my life
And your love which I lost centuries ago
I have regained
And the feeling is strong, intense, insane
Your eyes like a tender waterfall
speak a thousand languages
without a murmur of a tear
And yet we are here
Near Not dear, Vague, unclear
Living individual fears

LORD II
Thank you for the sun
& the moon
& newly born drizzle
that sprinkles in June

The grass plush, permed in green
The rainbow, a multi-splendoured dream
The flowers on earth as they grow
The fires on hearth, that warms the soul

The waterfalls pure and clean
The Sun that rises high and sets low
The birds that sing in spring on trees
The beautiful branches with lovely leaves

The honey, the nectar and the buzzing of the bees
As every trifle of a miracle that I can see,
hear, love, feel and believe
As life overflows within me

TO WIN AND TO CONQUER
Conquests the highest dream
of a man’s quest
A burning desire to reach the top
To conquer crests
Conquest
‘Cause love betrays
& emotions go berserk
As time puts you
through the ultimate test
Conquest
To go higher than a falcons nest
You don’t have to try too hard
Or too much to be the best.
Conquest.
You are truly blessed.

JULY 1998
Rains
Torrential with the breeze
In the wild mountains
And a desire ... of unease
Stranger
Than the lightning
A trifle thrilling
A little frightening
Fresh waters
Crystal across the meadows
Below the green hills
Amidst the shadows
On old forts
And ancient palaces
Amongst known figures
And unknown faces

Somewhere
A small feeling is born
Merged with a little care
And it's alive and painful
It's there!

WILD RAINS
Wild rains,
Falling, drenching,
Burning out the fires
A lightning and a bolt of blue
Within the sky,
Wetting the greens,
Cooling the scenes,
Scorching the soul.
As gray splashes of nothingness
Wash the empty whole
An ecstasy that the rains have seen
Touching my life where you have been

& A constant subconscious memory
A little smooth &
A little fiery
You are everywhere
& Yet nowhere

In consciousness of my subconscious
An unconscious desire
A companion to my lonely heart
My only heart
Which is set to betray me
I wish I can let things just be!
And it wants to surrender to thee!

I MISS YOU AND I DREAM OF YOU
I miss you and I dream of you
Mountains that I want to climb for you
Stars I want to capture
When this night
Envelops the world
So slight
And eyes that are filled with sorrows too
I think of you
It rains and I can visualize you
A mirage we call this our life
A hope, that destiny destroyed
I dream of you, I think of you

The softness in your voice
Is a sweet embrace
Just a trifle smoother
Than thy smile
Not sweeter than
Thy face

Thy beauty does
That to me
It gently rolls
& Softly sets my heart
Free
Tuesday, May 19, 1998

YOU
Your innocence brings the
Freshness of spring
In your voice
And your wild smiles
And the softness in your
Tender styles

The richness in your sprite
Has the light of dawn
In the darkest of nights

You are a wave of purity
In this wild mindless world
The sweep of your hair
In ever swerving curls

You are a joy to behold
And life to lost souls
In a world full of strangers
You are the warmth
When everything is so cold.

ROARING RAINS
In the roaring rains
And wanton waterfalls
While the wild winds feign
The white, flowers flow and fall
On the dark black seas
And the wet ebony rocks
Within the soft singing of the streams
And the mild buzzing of the bees
As the butterflies blame
Jaded grass green
My spirit will call thy name
Under snow covered skies
And the desert scorched lands
From highest peaks
And lowest valleys
My spirit will call thy name
As thin air speaks
And echoes sound in lonely alleys
My love for thee has neither pride nor shame
On the highest peaks
Through strongest breeze
My love flickers like an eternal flame
My spirit will call thy name

ON SLOPES OF MATHERAN.

Green, greener
A haze of blue
Somewhere in the hills
Should have met you

In a mist amidst
Valleys and streams
A personification of
Most beautiful dreams
Where I could be me
And, you could be you

Unfortunately, when our tracks met
Few moments were all we shared
Two strangers in nowhere land
A smile, few words and a warm hand

An arrow from nowhere
A twang without a meaning
A feeling, a feeling - definitely
A feeling!

An emotion above everything real
A feeling that says you are special.

Note: Met Lucy in the train, Special moments – these, 19th Oct 98.

SPARKLES
There’s a sparkle
In the clean clear waters
And a silver glint
Of hope
As the sun’s ray touches the gleam
I experience a spirited rush
Of racing emotions
Something that seems new
Coming from you

SHORES OF TIME
I stand on shores of time
Waiting for life
To take a flow
As a horizon I distant see
Makes my heart jump in glee
Or some untold morning mists
Which unfolds in melody
And a hint of sadness
A pain
A melancholy
Across the thorns lies paradise
Maybe meant for you and me
The air is fresh
And your reflection
Embraces the evening skies
That’s all I have for now
Your reflection
An echo
of lost times

1997

2005-02-27T12:39:00.001-08:00

Thursday, January 12, 2000
a stranger walked on
a strange street
in a blind night
among stones and trees
and houses with lights within
that failed to recognise him

who once they so well knew
knew his feelings and understood
with them he had once shared
a whisper of a love affair

which died
on this very street
he’d laughed and he’d cried
he’d loved and she’d lied

seven years come and go
as the pain twinkles in a fear
a pain distant and yet so near
rendering a sweet blow
that feels dear

he walked alone
careful not to wake the ghosts
without shedding the tear
he’d held

a small light somewhere
knew his name
had seen the passion in his gaze
had seen the kisses he’d shared

seven years are not leaves
that fly away in winds
trees forget people
and streets forget names
humans become strangers
and strangers become friends

he pretended
he knew no one
walking in a glory - empty
a strength - hollow
feeling no tear - no fear

the ghosts are dying
sleeping soundlessly
under their respective graves
Who comes? Who goes?
Who cares? Who knows?
Thursday, January 20 2000
there’s something about wintry nights
the breeze sings a cool melody
and the stars wink in the skies
as you stand on the gravel

feeling the sea in the distance
hearing imaginary waves
oh! It’s the breeze
when the silence is the conversation
and love is paramount
in your mind
no past present or future
just the here and the now
and you alone with yourself

Soft, sweet, sanguine
Soft, sweet, sanguine
A golden droplet fallen from heaven
A lovely little lost dream of a dolphin
Softer than a song: cuter than a penguin
A more beautiful woman I’ve never ever, ever seen

A voice that is so soothing, a smile that’s gentle
A spirit that is wild and a glance of an angel
Your eyes are so beautiful
Your face is so nice
Your hair is like the waterfalls
That’s melted from the ice

When your pink lips part to form that lovely smile
A man can lose himself in this life that’s an isle
Cause life is so beautiful and it could be lost in a while
Your trust is so rare, that’s lost in people’s guile
When the rains are heavy
When the rains are heavy
And the storm is cracking like a whip on the floor
My heart is light, jumping and thumping and it’s happy
I’m happy cause I’ve told you and you know

I wonder as my glee ebbs and flows
I feel that you feel and I have been wrong before
I wonder if you are a dream I have waited for
Or is life heading for another disappointment as before

The sun comes out sooner or late, that’s life. That’s fate
I think I can live without you before that’s too late
It’s painful to know that I know nothing
But than love is love higher than hate
Some people touch our lives, my friend
Some people touch the core of our existence
Like the moon creates tides
As the breeze touches the sea
Creating waves
Like the waves touch the shore
Hitting into the heart of rocks
Creating sand
Ebb and tide
Joy and sorrow
Love and hatred
Today and tomorrow
You have touched my life in
Oh so many ways
Someone, somewhere, somehow

The world goes on
As waves of time hit the rocky shores
And corrode them like only time can

Sometimes time stops, pauses, forgets to tick…
Like the moment my eyes met yours. And I
Lost you in the infinity of your eyes
The world was mine
The feeling was divine
Moment, hours, years froze
Feelings shivered and gently arose
And an empty pause of nothingness
A vacuum that world and life had been
Found meaning and…
Existence lost its priority to you
Your clear eyes and mystical smile
Took my life over while tenderly touching
And gently taking over my world

But there are dreams within dreams
And worlds beyond worlds
Further than what
Eyes can see, ears can hear
Or hearts can feel
Times change and
People turn corners, go out of range
Strangers become friends
And lovers feel strange, restrained.
Time teaches us to live, give in, give.
Forget, start over and forgive
Time ticks and world becomes still

For each other we shall always be
Someone, somewhere, somehow
Beating in the innermost, small, central, dark corner
Of the other’s heart
Living in memories
Lost in the pages of our lives…
Somewhere!
Someone!
Somehow!

FOR YOUR EYES ONLY
Floating free in your deep blue eyes
I surrender to you all my nine lives
And each dive I take in the pool of your eyes
A part of me gently dies
And explodes in a million and one sighs

Falling free from the blue of the wild skies
I feel at home within your li’l heart
Flying through the layers of warmth
Hidden in your moist eyes

Each time I think of you
What we can and cannot
or would not do
A arrow tears into my heart
And fills with bloods old, old scars
A part of me softly cries
WILD WILD RAINS
The rains lashing in the dark
Causing the occasional spark
As lightning flies
As the drops drop
Dance, jive
Die and come alive
Within the blink of an eye

Within that one mad
Magical moment blind
All at once and yet again
It’s love
The blessing as it pours
From the skies

The Savage and the Princess

2005-02-27T12:39:00.000-08:00

The Savage and the Princess

High above the ivory mountains
Surrounded by pine trees
on crystal towers
swept by the wild breeze
stood the summer palace
King Philip's

Where one summer came
here to stay young Irene
20 she was then,
the summer palace
she had never seen.

Irene, the beautiful princess
Her songs haunted the winds
Artistic, beautiful and slim
Soft the structure; and trifle bold
pouted lips. Iron willed
Beautiful body and simple soul
Irene the princess could lip-read
Hands: tender, lovely, and strong.
The fingers artistic and long.
Her eyes in the dark shone
Though her heart no noble won
Her smile melted hearts
tender as her heart seemed
She confessed she could never feel
As nobles proposed her hand
Proposals (from near and far) a lot
She refused. None a after-thought

"Heartless she is " (said her friends)
But heartless she was not
The truth is sometimes if not most
much more than meets the eye
Obscured by appearances
haunted by ghosts
and sometimes rare
Clouded by lies

Irene had abolished hunting in the land
And defaulters she would apprehend
"Never shall one kill the beast
For mere pleasure or a royal feast"

As the king trusted his daughter blind
She was his favourite and always on his mind
But the servants never shut the spying eyes

One day the princess
wanted to riding go
And riding, she went
- Her father could never say no.
In the forbidden woods,
In the forbidden land

But Eastern dark was
Beyond the Irene empires
No soul ever dared wander
Eastern dark was ruled by Sparks
And Sparks killed on slander
most referred him a savage
a hybrid of a noble woman
a hybrid of a cruel man
Sparks lived on plunder
A savage at heart
Callous and sinner in more ways than one
Savage lived in the blinds
And he hated the Sun
He ruled over the Gypsy tribe
which settled in there 1200 AD
whom he loved; they could at him jibe
The savage lived the dark
hunting the wild gave him a satisfaction - cynical
He was a villain at heart
Sharp at words and quick at vocabulary
Learned.The blood of the noble woman
Evil. The heart of a cruel man
He could charm the birds off trees
Though his charm was seldom if at all
wasted(?) on birds or fleas
Women and never wine
were his weakness prime
Killing in his land was not considered a crime

And thus on the morning he killed
to avenge the death of a gypsy waif
The lion had skinned
He had made a trap
When word came that Jessica saw the beast
under the Red Sand Mountain

Sparks rode as hell had no fury's name
Out aside with sword and shame
Pulled out his silver lancet sharp
Hunting gave his glory fame

And down the woods the Lion came
Sharp the eyes mammoth the frame
And quick before the sound through harp
Savage down from his horses came

And eyes across eyes did meet
And two animals none could tame
As though the silence could much speak
Their grey eyes a single burning flame

Sparks - Savage was not just in name
One strike left the lion lame
One must the other eat

Both animals were on their feet
A roar the wounded lion gave
A scratch
The blood: Sparks could not save

And silence then became discreet
The pride and arrogance left insane

A smile reached the Savage eye
His arm bleeding like it rains
His lancet one and a half metres long
Swished across the air like a song

The lion was faster than most
The lion played the jungle host
His claws penetrated Savage guts
And deep deeper the bloody cuts

And blood his own
Made Sparks smile
A battle A battle A battle
a mile

Sparks adored the lions style
And speed he caught up in a while
The golden mane he came close
And as the scarlet blood flows

Swish, went the Savage eyes
The lancet moved faster
Hard and high
The sabre cut the lion's throat
A smile
The hunter gave a gloat

And Savage killed with poetic rhythm
Killing on slander; the Savage anthem

Night after night, day after day
It was the same, the savage and his bloody games

As evil Sparks gained Savage name
And hoofs thundered
and earth shuddered
When Savage came
And Savage came.

II
Lost her way that night
Irene the beautiful princess
The horse stumbled as she
fell in the waterfalls
The horse died
She fell in Sparks arms
The horse died

She felt not
Irene had never cried
She felt never
Pain or pleasure
The Luna night
The moon was out
As she stood awashed
in the silver light
and the waterfalls
'Fountains of youth '
it was called
The tribals believed
She was all but undrenched
Her white skin on white glistened
as she caught the savage eye
He smiled his brown skin tanned
He smiled she had a beauty rare

Looking ravishing in the moonlight
like a wild flower
that touched his savage heart
As he picked her
indignant by the Savage touch
and before she could reason
he kissed her
amidst the water falls

She was cold and then she was warm
intrigued by the savage charm
She couldn't love
She couldn't hate
"Friends" her eyes shone
she wasn't an ingrate
but the savage wanted much more
He used friendship as a bait
"Aah ! young man lets be friends
Friends to the core !"
Her extended hand
met his
His eyes a seldom smile bore
"A very special friend?" he mused
"So be it".
But friendship was not his wish
Her ignorance was her bliss

He helped her out of the eastern reach
As they rode back on his black steed
which sped through the jungle's silver light
And send her home late that night
Much after he stopped to say good bye
Much after he paused to say good night
*
"I hate to say good bye"
he stopped at the palace gate
"How could someone part
with something as beautiful as you
and why !

I hate to say good bye"
One tear in the cruel eye
"Try", smiled she flattered, yet untouched
"Try" her luscious lips glowing
Her twinkled eye all knowing
The savage feeling growing
As he pulled her
The spying eyes
"I love you as I've never loved,
I'd live and die for you" said he

"I don't know I can't feel
I don't know If I want to"; said she

"Then please do, or don't know thee
How much I love you
Don't ye love me
Irene" He stopped "Don't ye love me"

"I don't know...
Summer palace is not my abode
I will have to leave someday
my father has plans for me
To send me to a foreign land
to further my knowledge
And love is too early for my age
Sparks, I don't know, I don't know, "
was more than he could hear

"I don't care when you go
I don't care where you go
But till then be near"
As he came close. One hand stroked
fingers through her hair
She resisted

"She always would"
thought he "Indeed, very rare"

The princess could lip read
The savage had seen women
The savage had seen life
"but never in my entire life
have I seen a woman as beautiful as ye!"
He kissed her cleopatra nose and held her
She made him feel things never felt
When he felt her
He kissed with a savage force
And then kissed gentle as a rose
"This girl is a woman "
Savage thought
And savage was enough of a man
to know that
(The princess could lip read)
Though right now he felt more like a boy

fondling
caressing
touching
holding
his puppy love as if it were his favourite toy.

III
He looked heavenwards and
said "Lord I deserve her"

As lord looked down upon earth and said
"No my son I love you and can't curse
But you sinned in thy life
You deserve not true love
You deserve much worse"

"Father in heaven holy be thy name
May you - we always hail
Lord I can't give her up
I shall fight
I shall fight tooth and nail"

"So be it my son
consider this a battle you never won"

Arrogance laughed and fear cried
All but lost was savage mind
His love and his hate
were they but his unfortunate fate
"Unfortunate" a word he never self used
The savage was in a ironical way amused
"And when again shall we meet"
He turned towards her

"On full moon night" her face lit

"All right then we shall meet under this very oak tree
All right I will come after I finish hunting"

"But hunting is abolished in my land, Sparks"
shocked she "Don't you know ?
Animals we have to save"

"But my jungle is not within thy boundaries, princess
I'm your lover not your slave
Or don't you know!"

She smiled again, her eyes lit bright
"I never even once thought so"

A promise he would keep
he gave up killing that very night
Till the day she was within his hearts reach
A contract he would not breach
A promise he would keep
He rode back to the jungles he came from
Savage did not sleep that night to dawn

Next morning early He
came out of the leafy blinds
The savage wanted to see light
As the sun came out
from nowhere
For his eyes it was too bright
Golden was the green and black
his mother used to worship the sun
As he bowed on his knees in prayer
She had changed him
And he was only too aware
And without even a single rumble
The crust of the savage heart crumbled

It could only be love
But two sided it was not
Not yet atleast
And somethings are realised
much much too late

They walked in the night
She cancelled her party with kith and kin
As he looked at her
Her mane unleashed

She looked as if she were a dream
wild as a jungle flower;
Colour blushed her face
exotic was her aroma
He wanted to hold her
He wanted to kiss her
As he stood mesmerised
under the tree
Savage never forgot that night
Never felt that way
A little tongue tied

"Be mine, be my bride"
He sighed

"No Sparks, I'll have to wait and see
It's something I can't just decide
You are free though to go
and choose any girl for thyself
Can't decide at this juncture
what I want myself"

Arrogance we are born with
Patience we learn the hard way
And once it comes through
It is and will remain there to stay

"I shall love thee forever princess"
"But forever is a long time"

"And now? what is wrong with now, Irene?"

"Now Sparks, is the wrong time"

A weakness a weakness a weakness he must find
Use intinct
use intuition
use experience
use the mind
A weakness a weakness a weakness he must find
Sometimes confusion
sometimes love
sometimes arrogance
makes us blind
And all but in control was the savage mind

"Only the dumb can't decide" he persisted

"Then count me with them" she resisted

"Don't leave, Oh ! Don't leave,
Don't leave yet! Please don't leave"
the tiger meowed
She smiled and she stopped
"What is it with you ?"

"I think it's love and I know it's true"

"Sparky ! No body is indispensable"

"Exceptions are independant
And exceptions are undependable"

"Your patience does you credit"

"When you love something wait long
before you grab it
Irene I must touch you"

"And you claim you love me true?"

"Even true love Irene must touch" he hushed

"I don't think as much" she blushed

"And what difference shall a kiss make, tell me"

"My words Sparks my words exactly"

"Passion adds colour to love
Passion adds flame to fire
and passion is not lust" he tried

"True love is to feel without having to touch" she replied
"I have to go now, I must though
I go on morns by the river for a lone walk
I wish you could come but it will be dark
and you live so far"

"Princess, I shall start early
and find my way in the dark
then there's always the pole star.
I shall meet you at the palace lawns
I shall meet you at dawn"

He woke up at three and reached at quarter to five
She lay dreaming when suddenly his face appeared
in her dream before her eyes
She awoke and she stretched it was already dawn
Went near the window to eye the palace lawn
He stood right there dressed in black
She hurried and moments late
she was there

And they met time and again
sharing happiness anger grief and pain
The savage could not let go
And the princess did not know

Moments hours and days
Golden sunsets Silver morns
They all made way
As they basked in each others warmth
Hot afternoons & Chilly rains

Through jungle banquets he went without meat
A promise A promise A promise he must keep

As the Savage waited
held back tear in his eye
for a sound reply
Softly he spoke
"Darling I want nothing from thee
I just want to know and know for sure
If it really is love you feel for me
Irene! Break the chains that bind me
Irene! Let your true love find me
Can't we live for the moment
and the moment alone
One moment at a time
One moment to the next
Let this moment freeze
Let this moment be our best
And then if our love be true
It will survive and far outlive
the harsh realities of life's cruel tests
Tomorrow Irene none has foreseen

Tomorrow is but a dream
And since yesterday is a has-been
Today is all we have my beautiful Irene
All I need know is, is it love thee feels
Should I stay or should I leave"

"Sparks I will be gone for two years,
too long a time to save love
and to save tears
And then maybe I'll go for more
It could even be four
I want not you to lie in wait for me
Let me decide in a day or so
My decision will bind ye
or set you free"

And when alone he walked in the forests at nights
As she lay asleep in her palace at the other side
He looked the stars seeing her face in the moons
An answer An answer An answer he would have soon
And when he would see her in the evening tomorrow
The answer would bring him pleasure or
The answer would set forth the reign of sorrows

He met her next to next evening at five
he was late
But his heart stopped after what she had to say
was said
"And have you an answer" he looked in her eyes
As she nodded, and he sighed

The moment of truth atlast
As he looked down the palace grass

She said "No" thats all she said
He looked down.Sad yet unbetrayed
Her answer may have been his fall
But she had spoke the truth after all

As the princess asked
"Do you want to be left alone
with thyself and thy thoughts ?"
"No" he hissed his thoughts far-gone
He looked down and looked up again
Up above the rest:Up much above the crest
Up at his father in heaven
And his heart screamed
"God you have done this to me
No tears No sorrows but I feel betrayed
Lord you just could'nt let me be
But it is thy will, not mine
And am I just a mere pawn
of my fate
The goodness with which you had
set my heart free

Is it all gone with my fate
I will do it to the the mortals you love
What you have done to me in hate
Fire and blood rains will color thy earth
The earth shall be torn from the centre
All your loved souls shall run helter skelter
And I be not feared by your curse
And may my downfall be the cause of your mirth
I will set fire wherever I shall go
And don't flatter thyself I shall survive the blow
Never shall I be one with you
I am the son of satan
I disown you
And the virtuous shall weep
As my heart weeps today
Oh heavens your dawns be black
And dusk be bloody
My defence will be my worst attack
Lord almighty I am done
And all because you wanted some fun
Widows shall cry and orphans shall weep
A promise A promise A promise I shall keep"

"Threaten not me my son
You still have a lot to learn
The day of judgement await
And then resign to your fate
You are a mere mortal yourself
And spoilt by your whims and fancies
Spoilt by your silly victories
Spoilt rotten and arrogant you are
But this time you have gone too far
much much much too far
You deserve not a mere curse
You deserve much much much worse
But fortunate you are
your past deeds still hold good
Don't tell me What I do
or What I should
Threaten not me my son
Threaten me never my son
Let all thy good deeds be undone
Go your way, live thy life
What I want done will be done"

The fear shut Sparks up
For the first time Sparks felt
the power of raw fear
Silence and silence alone
Uninteruppted Undisputed
He descended
As towards the river they walked
There was none a after-talk
And Sparks his eyes blood shot
His emotions on the brink

Helpless, he was and yet ready to kill
"Sparks, Will ye share the thoughts thee thinks"
"I will Irene I most definately will"
They sat by the river bank
The sun set, the red disappearing
to give way the night blues
And in the air the purple hue
"Am leaving tomorrow for the land
of the hebrews
The desert,
the arabs,
the nile,
the sands"
"And us, will we still be friends, "
"In feelings only, I don't see again we ever meet
And then princess all good things come to an end
Better to part in smiles than to part in deceit"

She closed her eyes, as she sat, putting her head on her knee
Quiet, very quiet As Savage turned
She moved not even yet he was moved
Her eyes closed and thus she spake
"Nothing " a mere whispered tone close to tears
Could she feel after all?
After all these years
of Heartlessness
Heartless she was
hath said her friends
"Lets walk it's our last eve together"
pulling her up
Hand in hand
But she was wordless
And Savage tried in vain
to make her smile
As her feelings burst
like a volcano bursts
once in a life time
and she finally cried
The Savage believed not his very eyes
Her tears she could not hide
Tears gushing out her face red and warm
Savage spoke "Do you oft cry when friends depart"
He held her "Are you sure you love me not
Just look me cross in my eyes
Cross thy heart
Say you love me not
That's all I want from you
Just say you don't "
She looked at him with tearful eyes
"I think I do"
Her lips were warm
"I think I do"
As he held her

She wept and cried too
As he kissed her
Hard and long
It was dark and time flew
She responded unrestrained
As relief spread in the savage mind
there feet cold in the waters
and their hearts warm within
As true love the Savage found
And the princess -
emotions she finally felt
Her heart finally cracked
just before the gold in it melt
As they stood in each others arms held

The eve brought back life in their deserted
souls
with a lot of smiles and some useful tears
The savage and the princess
The tiger and the deer
The impossible dream that came true
As he looked up above the dark blue-red
-purple hue
and thanked his father in heaven
And begged to be forgiven
Words he had spoken in vain
His arrogance be forgiven
His father smiled
As Savage spoke
"I don't care if I lose her now
I don't care if this be the greatest mistake
of all
I don't care if the flight of emotions
cause me to a commited fall
It is better to have loved and lost
then to never have loved at all"

They lived at a time one day
Their love selfless and had a passionate quality
The animal magnetism that they experienced untamed
saw sparks in the jungle fire's duality
which burned at both ends
Wild is a word too mild
Burning with passion bright
Blood red passion
And sometimes gentle like blowing winds
through whispering groves
And gentle is a strong word to use
soft like the morning dew
Free as a flying bird
The love they shared in three months
far exceeded the sheer intensity
of love's personified shadow
people feel in a life time
what they felt for the other

IV
Savage entered the palace grounds one night
Swinging up the Oak tree
Crescent was the moon
As he reached the palace balcony
Lost his balance as he almost fell
holding on to the creeper
The guard turned blind-eyed
as Savage jumped within
Entered her private chambers
She lay asleep dressed in cream
She awoke with a start
His hands were quick to
lock her open warm mouth
her frenzied scream
She recognised him in the dark
As he kissed her
"I had to see you"
Her body felt like soft cream
one hand moved up on her silky legs
She got up from the dream
to move away in time

"I want you"
"Sparks someone will see
You must go
You must" She urged
He smiled enjoying her disrelief
"All right then, Kiss me first
and maybe I shall leave"
As he held her
She couldn't resist
As she lay in his arms
Timelessness and love's mist
She fell asleep
As he held her night to dawn
And just before the gleamer of light
He got up and jumped out holding the tree
And rode away in the steal of the night
Helina the youngest daughter of the king
saw him leave
She complained
The king was disbelieved
and dismayed
Enraged, He
send out for his daughter
"You are my child, my right hand Irene
How could your judgement falter
How could you a mistake make
You whose judgement I pride upon
Oh Irene truly my child Iam dismayed"
"Father he has changed completely
He is a man capable of loving
a woman complete
with his heart
his soul
He is brave and
He is bold"
"His soul he has to lucifer sold
Your happiness is mine
But I strongly disapprove
You shall have to make a choice
whether you want to go the orient
to learn the art of creating silk
Or you want to be the savage bride
and live like he lives on barbaric hunting"

Ambition crowns individualism
Ambition overpowers feelings
As the princess decided to leave
for China
tears brimming in her eyes
And told savage of her plans
when she met him that night
"Iam going far east, but to your heart
I shall be near, I will be back
and We shall meet
To my heart you're much too dear

I love you and I always will
To you I shall always be true"
"Princess When do you leave ?"
his silence spoke
"In a week
And I shall not be forever gone
I shall come back" she said
He stood quiet "All right then I shall wait"
And when she finally had to leave,
As they met before she left
"I don't know what future holds
But promise me Sparks
that you will see me once before
I die
if I do in foreign land
You will come to see me"
"So be it my fair princess
I shall keep my word
If not any other promises
As time goes
I shall keep this word"

She left in her father's ship "Irena"
Leaving him behind in the dark
As she sailed to the distant shores of China
The jungle felt like a desert to the savage heart
And Gypsy dances brought no pleasure to Sparks
He couldn't live without her
He realised when she left
As the the hard hit fact sunk in
He looked up at the stars and he saw her
Love's separation is it's own delight
and heart aching

He waited for six rains
But she never came
One day he took his steed and just left
informing not the old wise man Morooni
or his best friend the third princess
Isabel
He crossed the jungles and rode like hell
He had to see her

A journey of 67 days and 66 nights
Froth with danger, struggle and eternal strife
Horse back and saddle free
through thundering typhoons in rafted seas
Bleeding feet and bleeding knees
Out of France through Spain
Cordoba
The large dark churches with crosses
over them
The white sea gulls, the dark fishermen
The spanish guitar.
Evergreens and rocky terrain
into the wild african land
Morroco, Khairwaan
Cannibals and Witch heads
Thick Jungles, Zulu and Masai
tribes men
Crocodiles and Phythons
Lost.
Unexplored land
Marshes, black-mudded and red
quick sands
African herds of big-eared elephants
Flies and sickness
Rains and disease
Pygmies the tiny men
Poisoned arrows but
helpful hands
Unknown tongues and
faithful friends
Sahara, Egypt and Arabia
Nile and Cairo
Camels and Caravans
The land of pharaohs
through desert storms and furnaced hot sands
Hunger, thirst, killing him
But he could not die
Jerusalam, the land of Christ
Palestine and Damascus
Baghdad and Persia
Herat and Ghazni
The Khyber pass, Afghanistan
The mystery that was India
Punjab and Sindh, Indus
bleeding shoes wounded knees
sweating salts and aching feet

pathways wild, Asia
Lion traps and snake pits
Tiger country and leopard land
The savage had to hunt
He had to live not be killed
to see her
He lived on sheer will
Himalayas, crossover and
Finally Tibet
Buddhist Monastaries
Meditation, self-control and resistance
peaceful clan
Snowy terrain, biting winds
And the jagged mountains with dizzy heights
slipping feet and icy nights
As he held on to dear life
And his tired eyes searched for his Irene
Dusted,
he reached the chinese land
His skin colour a darker tan
rusted
He had promised her he would be there
Far from the Ivory mountains and the pine trees
Far from the horizons his eyes once reached
Far in the far east
The Mongol mountains
The rice fields, the con hats
Wells where he quenched
his thirst
and as night engulfed he found
himself
In the bright chinese market
dusting away the brown dust
greeted by fireworks
And lights red
As he splendoured
The Yuan dynasty
at it's best
The King Chui Hung's 89th birthday
As beautiful exotic China lit up
He searched and his eyes stopped
He saw his Irene
in one of the palace balconies
A smile reached his tired eyes
After years a genuine smile
He stood there numb
Their eyes met
And atlast
"Irene" he mumbled
The princess could lip read
"I will climb the gates
tonight to meet you
Irene I have waited for this moment
for years, have you?"
He whispered through the layers of wind

that seperate them
"Yes I have"
Her eyes spoke
As tears streamed down
as she saw him and his bloody clothes
The traveller had reached his destination
"Oh Allah be praised, Jesus flourish
and Buddha I surrounder, All mighty ye granted me
my only wish". They finally met
Responding to her soul call
making love out of nothing at all.
The promise he had made
He kept without a single regret
They met.
And made love
Wild and soothing
all through the chinese night
In each others arms
Next morning before light
They made love once again
"Nights and days
I've dreamt of thee
that someday you
return to me,
but you never came.
I lost hope
Am I to blame?"
"Sparks Your trust is little compared to mine
I was always yours and always I shall be thine"
"Sorry my love but life has
taken away all the trust from me
which on your face shines"

With the yellow men of the
Yuan dynasty a week
they played hide and seek
One eve came the time to leave
And "Now princess I must leave
East is East and west is west
And the twain have met but once
And once I thought it not possible
I came across waters and
I came across foreign lands
just to set my eyes on you
And how beautiful thee has grown"

She looked at him with crying eyes
The love he had thought he would never find
Wiped away the raging doubts in his mind
"Irene will thee be my bride"
And then he forgot the world
leaving everything aside, he cried
"Yes" said she
and witnessed the early stars
His happiness unbound afar.

And the rest was history
As he carried her and mounted
on the steed
and rode away to the semi-golden horizon
The chinese hunted till Mid Arabia
And left the heated land
just two miles further from
where they had laid their tent
As they were last seen arm in arm
Smiles
seen by Abu Sheikh Khan
the camel boy
who rented them the tents
for two sovereigns
who grew old to tell the tale
to his sixteen grand children
The tale of the savage and his passion
The tale of the princess and her true love
of all King Philip's horses
and all Cui Hung's men
who left defeated.
Till date none know where they went
But the gypsy folklore goes as such

The princess married the savage
one rainy african afternoon
deep within the wild land
amongst his pygmy friends
The hybrid of a noble woman
and a cruel man
There were stormy times
but happy they always were

The land where flourished true love
away from eastern dark
and ivory mountains.
Where they loved and lost
years later to be found in the east
to be lost forever.
But this time life had found them
together
and
the monotony that was Savage's definition
of a marriage
had bound them together.

Tiger - The color of passion: burning bright!!!

2005-02-27T12:36:00.000-08:00

The Wound That Healed Not (16 Aug. 1992)

The tiger was wounded

his heart was hit

& torn apart

The pain extreme

It felt so real

Though roar he did not

his heart bled

he should have fled

he should've atleast

fought

A thousand arrows

poisoned

hit him straight through

the heart

She lived in the wild

west

He ranged from eastern

dark

The tiger loved a lioness

a breed apart

a class apart

The tiger lived in the

rain forests

alone

where amongst thorns

never a rose had grown

And suddenly he felt

lonely

helplessly so intense

The bull he had

slaughtered

The goat got away

scratched & bleeding

The ram he tore apart

The lioness had hit the

tiger (a gaze)

right through the heart

And he bled all the way

hoping to say

the things he knew he

would leave unsaid

It rained heavily that

night in the rain forests

the tiger ate not

slept not

restless - fever

burning him

giving up on her very

dreams

he was cold, he was wet

fire burning within

tears in the rain

(unseen)

trying hard to forget

the pain was excruciating

his love had reached the

final crest

And now he could only

fall

East is east

And west is west

And never the twain shall

meet

And tiger could not stare

defeat

And some one had said

love is blind

He had left memories

behind

It kept raining still

The birds cuddled in

straw nests

three days & three nights

Lioness & tiger were

friends

The best

Could his love survive

the

acid test

Where east is east & west

is west

He loved her a lot

more than he ever had

more than he ever could

have said

His ego permitted this

not

It had never before

and everytime he saw her

he loved her even more.

But he would go on

and the wound would heal

from one battle to

another

Roar he would not!

he would hunt again

And never forget the pain

He would rest hard

to regain the strength

He loved her

and he always will

Though tigers are born

not

to love

the breed live to kill

His ego couldn’t survive

her

but roar he did not

in acceptance of defeat

East is east & west is

west

And never the twain shall

meet.

It rained a lot that

year.

love is blind

Sometimes love is

discreet

As tiger blood met the

waters.

Death before defeat. + #

Though that was not to be

unfortunately

the tiger lost

as in possession

as in defeat

The self fury of blunder

he could not meet

he had blundered

for the first time

in life he admitted

the fact

he had blundered

though the lioness

did care

and good times they did

share

but love their was none

the tiger had a lot to

learn

cause black is black

and white is white

White

the tiger tried to jump

in

Hoping to clean the

poison within

but black is black

the white turned grey

and that was the truth

of their relationship

Grey it was.

at a small point their

boundaries did meet

So it wasn’t pointless

after all.

The Jungle War
The tiger lived in the

rain forests

among more foes than

friends

In the jungle of life

amidst danger & strife

where survival never ends

The lion & tiger were

best of friends

In the blaze of life they

dived

in the land amongst a lot

of quick sands

Life taught them both to

survive

Their arrogance remained

unmatched

The spirit of freedom

left untouched

In their personal hell

they lived

Amongst the world of lost

beliefs

Lost hope and lost faith

Impossible to retrieve

The lion was a king

crowned and accepted

his authority

unquestioned

his ego unintercepted

To the tiger loneliness

was a way of life

No love was shared, no

feelings shown

he clawed and killed to

stay alive

surviving on the edge of

a knife

And thus he fought alone

The lion walked the Sudan

heat

The lion walked with

bleeding feet

The lion was not a pussy

cat

constantly cultivating

his might

preparing day & night

In a world where the

strong survive

In a world where the weak

die

Setting himself for the

final fight

The lion fought the last

battle alone

No friends

no family

no lovers

beside

in the unknown

only memories of the one

he loved

The leo-tigerus were best

of friends

but all good things come

to an end

From friends to rivals

And rival to foes

How? and why?

nobody knows

Lightning thundered

as people wondered

It was a fight to stay

alive

None of them could

surrender

Their friendship died a

natural death

The bitch had blundered

The war began

The venom spread

The fire ran

The ice crackled

as fire met fire

The jungle flames

leaped

higher & higher

They fought

And none won

day and night

and night to sun

And yet!

No one won

A level they could not

draw

Yet!

That's what they lived

for!

And none of them

could ever withdraw

The Leo claws power &

might

The tiger instinct

faster than light

The earth shook

Mountains crumbled

What a fight!

What a fight!

The fight went

on and on

surpassing

night & dawn

They fought

summers

winters

autumns

rains

& spring

But none a result

it could bring

None could be

crowned the king

Killer instincts

do not a king make

Just power & might

do not battles take

But the final fight

alone it must be fought

You have to kill to stay

alive

The jungle beasts are not

pussy cats

Living on jungle knives

among thorns and never

roses

Facing every danger that

ever poses

A little sentimental

sometimes

that’s all

But he gets up quick

who learns to fall

They had got up a million

times before

And every time they fell

they got up once more

But all bad things come

to an end

And one day when the sun

rose bright

after a dark starless

night

They shook hands

on the bloody Sudan sands

They became friends.

Dark Twilight
The Sun had set long ago

The bats filled the night sky

Starless, black None a glow

black clouds looming large

the self imposed hibernation

had come to an end

He thought he might die

The cold turkey came and went

But he was still alive

The bloody rains had smeared the earth

The sleeping tiger awoke

Weak after a week atlast

in a mirth he spoke

The withdrawal symptoms very much there

after the night mare came and went

the paralysis had worn off

The smile had a crack The spirit had a dent

Though the body still hurt

And hurts normally go

Experience had taught him defeat

No matter how hard the blow

the pulse, the heart beat

The strength slowly returning

He had survived

Or so it seemed

And though for his warm blood

The winter was finally over

The hunger was in his eyes

He had done his good deeds

Enough to last him a life time

Now it was time for the feed

And he knew he will

Have to go for the kill

The tiger was now a nocturnal creature

Living

hunting

eating

at nights

for a lark

Bringing death to the unsuspecting soul

There are no mirages in the dark

None a fire,

None a star,

Not even a spark

deep within the eastern shadows

deep within the eastern dark

This is life

You lose sometimes

You win some

Though losing ain't a crime

And winning ain't always for the best

Strange sounds kept the jungle alive

As east finally met the west

His friendship had survived the acid test

The tiger let the rabbit go

No good killing the harmless for his food

Let not a bystander suffer the vengeful blow

The tiger would go for a tigress blood

And that would do him a hell of good

The tiger walked in a tiger stride

Happy, relieved, grateful to dear lord and her

Grateful he had survived

Tiger's trust
The tiger trusted not

any one but the golden claws

She believed him

and overlooked his wildness

and all his flaws

Unfortunate is a word

the tiger never had

to self use

Her care was almost there

on the way to love

But she refrained

He accepted her

Trying to understand

her silence

And almost did

Her feeling was softly

growing

His instinct the all knowing

And he trusted her word more

The jungle looked like Eden

Tonight the stars are having

a field day

She had drained out his hatred

And set his heart free

with a love so true

He couldn’t believe

None of his actions

were justified

The golden mane shone

in a mirage

which was more beautiful

than the life he had led

hunting and killing

in hate and love

She made him feel love

And that changed his life

almost completely

Jungle Part 17 Oct. 92
The tiger and the lioness

went separate ways

cause none could compromise

and each wanted the else

East is East knowing which

The tiger did not cry

The rains had stopped

The tears had gone long by

Something’s cannot be helped

This was the way of his life

Through hibernations he had learned

surrenders and blunders and futile strife

that nothing forever lasts

He would through this live: survive

survival was inevitable

From failures he had learned to achieve

killing 'cause god had made him that way

and his resistance to change

Alas the tiger went untamed.

As he looked towards searching for someone

he could blame, the tiger went untamed.

The race had left him lame

Betrayal was his power game

And his ego was ashamed

His love had no name

his pain left him insane

the tiger left untamed.

When he didn't want to live

He wanted just one chance to believe

she cared.

She could not grant him that

There relationship had no name

The tiger went untamed

When he could exchange his life with that of a peaceful

dove's

The tiger went untamed, wild and without the lioness'

love.

The White Tiger
The mountains were high

and the cliffs were dizzy

Jagged the edges

For him it was easy

The white tiger continued

his climb

Onwards with passion and fury

On to the crests his spirits loved

As ambition reigned

And efforts were crowned

Onwards the climb

Onwards the climb

Towards the golden sunsets

And eagles nests

Towards the glory

onto the tests

The final crests

The final crests

As the sole detester of defeat

And a achiever when impossible the feat

To go and give his best

And rise above the common herd

As magnanimity filled his soul

And power preserved

Though he was bold

Praising the ones that deserved

Passing the coniferous

The winter was cold

He was a tiger

And he was bold

To go and achieve his best

The final crest

The final crest

2nd Sept. 1993
Sacred is love but clandestine my past

As emotions run amok and true love never lasts

Your beats today for me your feeling betray

While I at a loss of words wondering what to say

Like a tiger on the bank of Nile

watching my friend die

Praying you might pull through today

But you have fallen prey

To my dead porcupine heart

One quill, when could tear you apart

My battle time has come

Love and War don't mix

It's unfair of me I know

Like poison mixed with rose

Tempting and as lethal & smelling still sweet

I hope you forgive & someday you understand

That goats and tigers don't meet

While philosophers & artists & politicians pretend

Though two become one

Yet neither in bliss nor brotherhood

In a blind night

One devours another.

Princess Poems

2005-02-27T12:32:00.000-08:00

Written between 1991 and 1997 in the wake of a mirage called true love. Nice, fresh, sweet!

PRINCESS
I forgive you my murder, princess

Cause I have only myself to blame

Only myself with whom I shall live

Only myself to bear the shame

You can't fight destiny my friend

Or draw waters from empty wells

You receive only grime

This is my life and no one need tell

Bad is my time.

When I die, bury me deep within the soil

Don't burn me

because burning I still am and always shall be

Lower me down gently but don't burn me

May your life have the splendour of spring

May white flowers fall as you pass under the tree

As your feet touch the morning dew

May you smell the gardens which like perfumes of Arabia

feel romance in your soul and bring joy to you

I pray to him to give you everything

I didn't receive in my life

as I sleep under the cold stone

As usual all alone and done and undone

As the sands of the lost world stay

atop my tomb untouched by human hand

May my death blossom in the ruins where once I stood

Proud and thought that life I understood

As death engulfs me today

May peace fill your soul

And sleep not evade your shining eyes

Like it once did mine

I haven’t slept ever since

Laughter like pearls within the sea of your tender heart

You may never have to search for

As more flowers in the spring bloom

And keep you away from the dark gloom

Cause we live but once

and die forever

when neither life or death

is ours to choose

where true love comes but once

May it never pass you unseen

And one day your heart it will melt

To feel the emotions you thought would go unfelt

And it's summer, green are the trees

Can you feel your heart beat

As you are touched by the breeze

That was once someone you knew

It used to be ME.

NE
It's better to love the one who is straight

Than to remember the one who you hate

and times and again when your love is fruitless

You know you are justified by loving the one she is straight

Than the one who- you betrayed

Who betrayed you.

That's why I love you

Cause even if you don't

You will be true

Understand when you don't, how I feel

LAST NIGHT
I woke up last night

looked out searching

for the pole star

It was there

True love like a soft rose

is the feeling which

brushes you

and makes you feel complete

True love I have chosen thee

of all people in this world

True love like tides

does not ebb or go high

It is consistent

It is constant

It is real

Honest like the blood

that flows in your body

Passionate but just the right proportion

Lovely like the autumn floor

with flowers scattered all over

True love has no conditions

Except the condition It's unconditioned

True love requires no faith

Or trust

True love is a meeting

of souls

Not mere bodies in sheer lust

Yes true love stands first

And that’s how I feel for you

That’s where ye will

always be first

SAME NIGHT
Are you awake too princess

at quarter to three

I’m missing ye

Are you missing me

Is the night playing

tricks with you

Are the stars smiling at thee

I hope you are allright

Though I might not sleep tonight

If you can't feel

I could apprehend

September's come to an end

Are you falling too

Wish I only knew.

POLE STAR IN DESERT NIGHTS
Sometimes in life we go without a friend

through long dark winters

without a soothing touch,

or a helping hand,

a lot of blisters

an ear unlent.

Friendship a term so foreign

The concept petrified me no end

You have removed a lot of pain

When distrust is a way of life

And betrayal a power game

when disgust the consequences

You have taught me to trust

It's good to know that you are near

And though most were not, you are warm &

you are sincere

I’m glad you are here and I’m glad it is now

I wanted to thank you long ago I just didn’t know how.

YOURS SINCERELY

TRUE LOVE
Inside the waters blue

Near the beach in Juhu

You consented

you cried

I held you

Your face was warm

Your tears salty

It was evening

It felt like dawn

Our love was growing

The pain gone

The feeling yours

atlast showing

I was inside the waters

Knee deep

And heart beat yours

tender seemed to skip

I kissed you

As love between us rose to touch

the skies

I’m December you're July

And the love between us centuries lost

found us atlast

In a place near the sea

I held and felt what true love

could mean to me.

And life's smiles would have been few

Ne, if it were not for you.

LIT UP FROM HEAD TO TOE LIKE A CHRISTMAS TREE.
We share common philosophies

And mutual understanding

You know I think a whole lot of you

There's no need pretending

You look at rainbows

and I at stars

You look at heals

I look at scars

you bring out the child in me

Show me what a world it could be

Try to make me

The nice guy I never was

You don't deserve a thanks

You deserve an applause.

WE GET ALONG LIKE A LIGHTED MATCH AND A STICK OF DYNAMITE

You little twerp we always fight

Afternoons mornings day & nights

A lot of times you make me smile

A lot of times you make me wild

I wonder why I can't hate you

And your name prompts me to.

I guess it's because you are funny

and cute as a bunny

And times when you make me snarl

PS Just don't push me too far.

YOURS COMBUSTIBLY,

FIRST ROSE
Here's something that looks

just like you

But all it's qualities would

never do

Exchange the world finest pleasure

for the rose in your house grew

and that's you that's you that's you

THE EVES WITH YOU (4 OCT. 92)
The first time I saw you

You were standing within the sea

As moonlight was streaming down on ye

You were singing I fell in love

but honest to god I didn’t know how

your birthday at the PDP

The dinner at New Yorkers

Our morning walks Our evening tea

And one day I proposed

You didn’t want to think

My love & friendship yours

Life goes on but love grows

The eves with you are exotic

Not all affections are platonic

The rains burning us in & out

Sunsets of gold And skies red & black

Red clouds & golden goodbyes

We have an attachment

Neither friendship nor love

Tug of war

pulls in the separate directions

Eternal confusion

You fill my life with warmth

Just can't keep my hands off

My silence intrigued you

I broke down one evening

You pulled me out of the gloom

Cry alone you didn’t want me to

We met at the temple

went for the longest drive

The city, the beach before us stretched

The idea of love far fetched

We park beyond the beach

The policeman didn’t seem to like the idea

Pay off - a dollar & Rs 10

The silent walk hand in hand

in darkness and on good sand

8th 6th and 10th road

Jamnabai Narsee & temple of the sun

The bunked States and music lessons

The PDP Where rocks meet the sea

We stood there As you I held

Your crust crumbled And your heart melt

The feeling you didn’t feel

in your eyes gleamed

We compromised

My love & friendship yours

I carried you up Napean Sea floors

We once had our dinner on the road

Sat at garden grounds met under your house

Roses & poems Untimed kisses

changing buses walking rains

which grace our meetings

sometimes before sometimes after

changing routes Lack of directions

The destitute home

The Xerox shop

Vile Parle station

Punjabi food tastes good

when am with you

Our bear hugs

my old house on Juhu Tara

my kindergarten Challenges

Don Bosco high, my house

203 ltd bus stop

Bold & beautiful

Santa Barbara

only on Star plus

BBC and MTV

The American library U.S.I.S.

The charmed watchman The charmed lady

The road side junk-food

ISKCON Hare Krishna Hare Ram

The boring dance

you shined on that eve

I at my best

black

white black combine

unmerged

white shines most on black

Experiences Diet plans

Exercises Greeting cards

Beauty parlour Eating Sev Puri on 8th

Sandwiches on 6th

Yoko's - Bandstand - grape juice

hand in hand

The drive, the song

Lure

No commitments

Unsure

Fasting religion & vegetarianism

The Dadar bridge and catching buses

Among crowds amongst rushes

Local trains and Rocky terrain

call it love call it friendship

our silent fights survived it all

Constant consistent

without a rise without a fall

The whispered words

The unsaid look

love?

"I don't know"

A dream called you

losing ain't a crime

something’s last a lifetime

Drenched when your clothes I wore

Malaria I sat on your bed

OK! OK! to the core friends

something’s just don't end

Percentage game 95 - 5

I’m December you are July

I’m winter you are rains

We combine the November rains

Nose bites and hug tights

It's special wrong nor right

The iced tea - Choochee

my lioness my princess

The silent zone we can't go on

who knows

life goes on love grows

miracle of love

ADIOS
I stand in front of the ocean,

where we first found love

Have we lost it again?

The eve coloured cream, blue, red, violet, black;

personifies our pain.

The red sun plunging into the sea

Your crying eyes still burning me

And life watching and mocking our sorrows

Will we have a tomorrow ?

As I stand on the shores of time

trying to let waves pass & hasten the flow

May be the warm water at my feet will soften the blow

Your honest eyes have touched my life with a faith anew

You were the rose that in my barren life grew

And when my head lay in your arms

I felt the peace that childhood never knew.

And now that you have gone

and only darkness left to embrace me

As beyond the horizons where you live now

Only black ahead with not a glimmer I see

As I wait cause tomorrow is another day

And then I wait for the one morn

when you shall return

and hold me like only you can

Kiss my salty lips

And touch me

like your life has touched mine

creating a rainbow

which can outlive time.

I know you shall return

sooner or late.

I shall wait, I shall wait, I shall wait.

ONCE
We loved each other once

Now only darkness remains

And the sun that has set

is lost forever

And none has gained

I feel for you amidst this pain

Though feel not

It’s unreal

And its all very insane

THE FIRST KISS
The night was softer,

much softer -

Softer such

The night was softer

than thy whispered touch

Dark it was & yet - light

The October moon a shade - bright

I held you and looked into your eyes

Your words

didn't conform yet

eyes don't lie

Soft were you & yet warm

your hair let loose and our song

Haunting through the breeze

Alone in the dark , we stood under the tree

A flicker of eyes , a nervous smile

Oh God! I loved you : more than heavens had stars

You were near but my feelings had gone too far

I felt you hair and then your waist

And slowly, all softly, my lips

touched thy brow

A bite on your nose

As my tongue flickered

on to an ear lobe

Closer I held you & yet not tight

The rustle in the air

in the soft of the night

Your quacking lips

Your nervous smile

No passion just a lot of love

And lot of any emotion is passion though

The love I felt was intense

slowly and softly my lips were nigh

Fresh as a dew drop

Your lips were moist

not very warm

The touch of silk

The feel of breeze

The taste lingered

left behind within me

And oft on rainy nights

and orange morns I miss

The beauty of our first kiss[YP1] .

THE RAINS
The rains outside my windows

brings memories to the mind

the love that we once shared

the love you left behind.

And everytime my heart flies

To the land of you and me

A part of me gently dies

cause once you & me were we

And today as you move far

to distant horizon as I see

and feel all the forgotten scars

so tell do you remember me

And the past that we had

and the dream we had shared

and the feelings we lost

and memories we gained

as the sun goes down on me

today

and as life had us betrayed

and smiles your eyes felt

and love your heart saw

are still a part of my wounded past

and the wounds are raw

I KNOW
I love the way you smile

and the way your eyes look

when you give me the stare

I know you

and seems like eternity

if only you could feel the way

I do

Even if it were just for a

moment it would make my life

worth living

Cause true love is not in receiving

it's in giving

THAT EVE
The rosy eve, a washed grey gloom

The barren trees, the dead gone leaves

And when you were here, all eve's did bloom

Today black destiny makes our hearts grieve

The eve has faded here, the light gone

Not a single ray, a single shadow'd bring

And oft when I look at the autumn outworn

I'm reminded of you and one time spring

A single star above me shines & yet no light

It brings: sole memory tears my heart

and none a single hope nor a single sight

of my love, as heaven and hell's blown apart

And not thousand sorrows to justify how much

my heart bleeds one black eved night

Neither thousand roses could e'er blush

And sparkle like your face nor gleam like thy sprite

I hope you are allright wherever thou art

wherever thee feels free & wants to be

May death never do us part

Unless Us became You and Me.

MARCH 1994.
Seeing you today with hair untied flowing mane

today; reminded me of the blossoming spring. Insane

was the purity of love felt I through heart beats

of mine; it was a tender, provocative desire yet discreet

And when the evil doer had done his deed

An extension of her love is the attraction I feel

It's not you, it's her I love & ashamed I'm still

While hatred, venom & vengeance flared but my love went

unkilled.

17TH JANUARY 1994
Gone are the days of glory

As the soft mist surrounds us

You must have looked for love

But friendship has found us

It is better to have & lost

People say

But losing is in bad taste

So cherish the friendship we share

Than an affair broken in haste

Thank you for the times you were there

With black gloom around us

And thank you for everything

When bad times had found us

Just before the lights go off

the sun tears the grey apart

And menacing the orange - black scoff

Brings my favourite memory to the heart

THE SEA
The sea dances with a lot of grace

The small boat putters through

And my heart bound freely unlaced

I think I'm much more in love with you

The sun drops down and cooler it gets

while darkness surrounds me wish you were here

Too much love more than I could forget

As absence makes the heart dear

But this separation is hard to hand

You are tough though I not weak

And our partings have become a trend

And love just a lucky streak.

THE SWANS
The white Swans danced in the sunlight

And into the moss filled pond

There was innocence and their eyes were bright

And their love went on and on

Day and night they played in the waters

Pure and clean was their dream

There was a lot of love and laughter

And there eyes had a lustrous gleam

But good things are fragile

And then the Eagle came

It was quick dangerous and agile

with a deadly game

And the male Swan wanted to fly high

As promises were made galore

And the Eagle crested into the sky

And the Swan tried to even the score

They flew over the waterfalls

And above the fields

Above the green valleys

Into the hills

In the deep forests

Near the springs

Seeing the oceans and

the pretty coloured horizon

As life was beautiful for the Swan

As he saw beauty he'd never seen

Whereas the other Swan was sad and lonely

Helpless and depressed

Love had left her life

And the feeling of pain was fresh

And one day the Eagle challenged

the Swan to fly to the snowy flights

of Everest

Cause that was the ultimate crest

The Swan accepted

The flight started

The danger was afoot

1000 feet the Swan couldn't breathe

1200 feet the Swan gasped

And fell

1200 - 1000 - 800 - 600 - 400 - 200 - 100

(The Eagle did not care)

Zoom! The descent

Into the waters

90 - 80 - 70 - 60 - 50 - 40 - 30

20 - 10 - 5 - 1

And the Swan nose dived into the waters

The wings were bleeding

And the dream was shattered

And the spirit was wrecked

It took him 3 months to reach back

To the familiar pond where he had loved

As he saw her crying

He begged forgiveness

She had a heart of gold

As came back the days of old

He was disillusioned

But he saw the light in her eyes

And his heart flew higher than

Any Eagle could fly

And thus he understood

the value of her love

And his love for her

went much much much above.

EVENING AFTER SHE LEFT
The orange eve, the summer sun

The train halting it's onward run

Quarter to five my wind blown face

The tousled hair the carefree race

Mahalaxmi junction of the lords

Walked up the stairs amongst the lot

The summer sun unkind: I crossed the lane

Promiscuous the sun & shade

The light green leaves, the blot of glade

Missing the most wondrous gaze

The soft hair , the starry eyes

The sheer laughter brightened my sprite

The true love, golden the heart

Oh ! Time hath set us apart

Now Ne further - further still lay

Across the seventh sea where night is day

(and my heart thus in sordid dismay)

Dispair! And God knows I miss

the rainbowed stare, She doth care

Across the jaded trees on stone, I gently pass

Across the race course , green was the grass

As a kindly soul gave me a ride

Across the road Haji Ali lie'd

And God knows I've been here before

Love had hit me hard and high

Had prayed here across the shore

(When Ne was nigh)

An angel that never refused, the beliefed heart

the open palm

I had prayed. Soft the wind had brought my spirit calm

"E! Angel on me mercy have,

O! Angel shower me with true love"

Haji Ali I had prayed on this very Muslim spot

An isle within the sea, a tower of peace - angelic abode

A heaven of shed tears . A relief to broken hearts.

Once I had asked my lady fair, the love seen in her eyes

Was it for me?

She feigned uncare. But I did feel it was there

The love that angel mercie'd in her heart was thus there

I looked across the sea calm , today .A sea sad and grey

And thanked the magnanimous heart for makin' my lady say

A tearful "I love you”, on the beach in the crimson hue

A smile, and soft the sea moves

Soft as a dream , her love true

Soft as my head against her bosom felt

Soft as her lap would seem

As grey rebound the orange star

As fire burnth the sky & sea

Her memories engraved upon my healing soul

burning within me

True love yours filled my heart with glee,

takin' over the dark cynical me

Crows black & Seagulls white

welcome the spirit of the night

seeming to fill the eve sky & sun's downwardth ride

Within the sea , spots of rocks awaiting the tide

A tide which filleth the empty blanks

A tide cometh tomorrow

And my love awaits thy return in May

to wash the painful sorrows

The deafened quite, Black's black

while white is white

As together they fill the purple skies

in mist of seldom joy alight

On the wall I had sat , the wall that faced the sea

On the very wall , once she with had sat

her eyes were all for me

As we had walked ten clinical stairs

Hand in hand, lip on lip

My lady fair my lady fair

She'd cared

And heaven bestowed.

A faithful friend turned lover

Flowers fell from above

The solaced moment , the princess' charm

It rained gold dust of pure love

THE HEAT & DUST
The heat & dust

is the ultimate truth

There is no spring there is no fall

it's just a dream

in the world wherein

there's no love at all

Just a lot of greed , passion , hatred & lust

The heat & dust

The desert we walk on

without sandals or shoes

The mirages we cross are passing by

No fresh water springs

No shade ever ,will this sun bring

No one to hold you

when tired you fall

No one to hear you

when desperation calls

Not a soul in sight

Not a star to steer you by

across in lonely nights

Please walk alone

And let the feet bleed

And none to live on

And none to feed

Death & darkness

amidst daylight

If this be the day

what be the night

But please survive

you've to reach

thy destination to meet

death alive

Cause death is thy destiny

You know this

You aren't naive

A survive wins

But a winner not survives

Please go on

This is twilight

And thus will be a long night

There may be dawn

Suneal go on

If heat & dust don't get you first.

GOOD-BYE
My time has come

My life is done

My love is gone

Goodbye Cruel world

I'm going I'm gone

The candle that lit

so bright

had to die

The world has shut

it's doors upon me

As God welcomes me

home

with open arms

"Son, come back

you've pained

When you needed

warmth and light

It has rained

When you cried in

thirst

A famine reigned

And here's your death

People rejoiced

But no one gained"

Oh! Death be with me

Be faithful

Be a friend

Since this is

where I stop

This is the end.

STILL MISS YOU SOMETIMES
I still miss you sometimes

On nights in a dream within a dream

It's not a sin but certainly a crime

As I see your shadow with in a stream

You don't deserve what I feel

For you love, was a compromised deal

I hate myself & It's true

I hate myself more than you

We loved each other once

Now only darkness remains

And the sun that has set

is lost & none have gained

I love you still with all this pain

And I think you know not how I feel

Its all very insane

THE DAYS WITHOUT YOU
Painful and painful life gets

One hurt after another

Now you are gone and gone is

the will, the wish, the desire

to live again

Once you were near and life was

right here

overflowing within me

Not a hint of pain

Life was dear

You gave the desire

I lost the fear

of loneliness and gained

(It was your decree)

a moral sense of right and wrong

a sense of responsible behaviour

You left me. But darling I'm not that strong

I can't stand losing you

We had a love where our whole lifetime

wouldn't suffice define what we felt

And sorrows fail me

Cause the hurt when much too deep still dwells

cannot fill the void within

And thus I don't weep

And time has failed to cure the pain

Neither has the pain gone

nor have I learnt to live with it

I’m not angry; How could I be?

I love you and I've never loved such

I love you too much

And I have learnt a valuable lesson

Our love was much above

ordinary passion

MOONLIGHT AND ROSES
The moon was silver

and roses were red

The river was silent

in the million things it said

The race with destiny began

and I tripped & fell

How quick my tears dried

How fast my blood stopped

flowing from the wounds

Only time would tell

Life goes on

For some it is

calm quiet and serene

For others

Harsh, painful and mean

As I sat alone on the banks

done all alone

As I looked at the side

Too much blown had flown in

I sat there through the long night

God It's been unfair

You just couldn't care

I trusted you but..

You were never really there.

OFF AND ON
Off and on I remember you

The love that we had

& feelings that were true

Your dewdrop lips

Your smiling eyes

Your lovely face

Your poisoned lies

Oh! What love used to be in 1992

There wasn’t your clan

Just me & you

Your voice still awakens me

on sleepless nights

Your touch makes a tear drop by

To the one I may love forever

And never again see

Tell me, my love,

Do you ever think of me

Your face tears my heart apart

A soft pain

A harsh pang

A hurt like no other

Oh yes! We loved once

We loved once!

We loved once!

THE LAY OF THE MOON
The lay of the moon

was the small pond

Darkness lit by the moon

The woods dark and bluish brown

surrounding the bank through and through

The lay of the moon

as the canoe moved

Deep in the dark woods

Combine silver and blue

The lay of the moon

Serene

as a fly buzzed across

in purple blue night

Cherries - purple and blue

As the moon mirrored cheery emotions

She was in a white gown

And he was in blue

The moon had met

the ponds leaves

Blue

There were lotus flowers

Soft and blue

Not floating nor still

If only they knew

after the day of the gloom

Came the lay of the moon

THE NIGHT OF JUNE 30TH 1992
On a starry night

with dark blue skies

deep within

the jungle

lush green

The fire flies

The whole world

bathed in

soft

sparkling

silver

moon-light

The nocturnal sounds

unknown

unseen

amidst nowhere

There seemed

none a soul around

Though you were there

on a whim

on a fancy

You were there

in a dream

You were there

with him.

Beyond the reaches of your eyes

The empty black horizon stretched

filled with fire-flies

which like dew drops of gold

fell from the heavens above

as your heart beat non stop

It had to be love

The feeling was ecstasy

charged with excitement

of the unknown

of the wild

Just then the wind blew

and one by one

all your dreams came true

The fear was mild

though the heart didn’t quite agree

The emotion had bound thee

You looked for love

and

It found thee!

The jeep halted

the wild boars bolted

in the blue

The squirrel sprinted &

ran up the tree

The pigeon flew

The red carpet unrolled

The table was set for two

As the Ratpack served

the dinner to you

In the middle of nowhere

You were dressed in red

Among the few things he said

was a "Yes"

The world stood still

"Yes"

You felt like a princess

from a fairy tale

"Yes"

You were asked for a dance

Your senses were sealed

You were in a trance

You couldn’t even stand still

"Yes"

The syllable touched thy ear

Your lips twisted to a smile

Oh Dear!

Your eye held hard

the undropped tear.

There wasn’t a single sound

Not even the rustle of leaves

and grass

You were lost in the wilderness

around

Years of friendship was love

Atlast!

I always thought love is blind

No trust that seems to be the trouble

Dreams are bubbles

THE DIWALI OF 1995
The winter has set in

with longer nights

and cooler days

And to commemorate the season

Diwali's here

The festival of lights

It brings a nostalgic feeling

And means different things

to different people

Of childhood

When you spend

your days dreaming

and nights excited

When you played with guns

and crackers

With joy and laughter

With friends

And family

Of Youth

When love touched your

heart and soul

And lights shone brighter

Than the stars in your

eyes

Of Age

When wisdom brushed

your life

and grandchildren

create a

nuisance around you

as you watched their

glee with a

magnanimous heart

and ate more sweets

than the Doctor ordered

To me

It means a time to remember

People like you

and how important you are to me

May this Diwali bring light

in your lives and music in your souls

May this Diwali be as sweet

As the sweets you may eat

May love in the form

of light enter

beyond your heart

To the Spirit

The SOUL.

May you be happy.

Happier than you have

ever been.

DIWALI IN 1996
This November

The skies are dark blue

with stars that

burn like embers

Across the purple hue

And candles with a glow true

As we sail across life

And distant shores anew

With fond remembrances of you

We hope the voyage of your life

Though with tide and ebb

Be most colourful

In life's intricate web

We pray you have no storms

through the journey

And your coast be clear

And you reach the horizons

Your eyes can see

May this Diwali be the brightest

And New Year most promising

unfolding and fulfilling

with each passing day.

SOMETHING’S HAPPENED
The whisper in the winds

Has a familiar note

The red of the sky fills my

soul with melancholy or

Is it glee?

I shall never know

Thy smile is a genuine treasure

I have found

Your words soothe

When there's only pain around

The green of the hill

awaits the rain

The touch when it comes

will drive insane

As the sunny heat

hardly bears in the mind

As life goes ahead

Only memories left behind.

As the rose melts with dew

I melt when my heart touches you

THE LITTLE SPOT
There is an empty spot inside the sun

A red mass of nothingness

A fire without a side nor soul

A rebel without a very cause

The name : aimless aggression

No light just fire

No love, No desire

A spot without any soft

No gleam, glimmer nor sparkle

Its just red hot

It thirsts for ice

It lusts for water

A little blue is all it seeks

There are tears in its eyes

Though it can hardly speak

LIFE ON EARTH
Have no right to play games with minds

with a selfish heart and the troubled mind

Why do I feel alone

Is it the trend

of the nineties?

or is it me?

A sea of men

everywhere

not a place to go

nor a moment to spare

I can play this game

And Win

I will

But to what end

To what mean

To what thrill

Its strange

Everyman's alone

in a swarm of faces

Nameless and strange

Where we are stranger

Strangers to our own land

Our own people

Our own life

We are all strangers

Though life is the strangest of all.

THANKING YOU

A teacher is a star called Sun

For planets

each and every one

We absorb light

The eternal bright

And absorb what

we need learn

Speaking

the language of the soul

touch hearts, enrich the mind

It takes the broken

and makes it whole

It takes the timid

and makes it bold

Like flowers spreading

freshness and joy

Like rainbow speading

colour in rains

And when darkness reigns

all alone

A teacher is a star called Sun

Suneal Varma as on 11 October, 2003. 5:22 pm.

HIGH THE MOUNTAINS
High the mountains

And deep the valleys

Covered with green grass

And white flowers

The Falcon rules the sky

and soil

The sparrow sits there

Day-dreams & cries

Heavy are the showers

And the white peaks high

As the white birds and

Eagles forever they fly

As the sherpah sings a song

anew

A song long forgotten

Every word is true

A song filled with roses

And wild drops of dew

A tune lost in ages

A language is unknowm

But the story remains

As the tale goes on and on

OK HONEY, IT’S WAR!
OK honey, it’s war!

Your games, your rules.

Let your cold silence

Dictate terms

Let my pride speak

With my own passion

And freeze.

That’s what you wanted.

Here’s that

Let our pride collide

And squeeze

Our love for the other.

Lord
Lord have mercy on my soul

Lord thy mercy on my soul

let me for others live

and before I take learn to give

Learn to forgive

And not in sheer vengeance burn

you know, lord & I don't

I have a lot still to learn

Not over-confidence to shatter my dreams

Just faith enough to fulfil my whims

I know I know I have sinned

There is a lot of poison still within

But let that be in my past

If the good didn’t

let not the bad last

Lord have mercy on my soul

To face the truth let me bold

Selfless so that for others I live

Gratitude to you and let me always believe

Till the day I turn to rest Till the day I turn to dust

I’m thy son bring out the best.

Forgive me my sins

And do not bring me to the test

cleanse me from within

And let hopes tomorrow bring

Though if it brings pain

let me not complain

Bow not my head to anybody but you

And for the things you have given me

THANK YOU

for the confidence to achieve my goal

Lord have mercy on my soul

The Broken Pieces: 1990 was a crazy year of love, pain, infatuations, hots and what nots

2005-02-16T22:02:00.000-08:00

THE BROKEN PIECES

The words are left unspoken.
The feeling undescribed.
The thoughts, confused.
My eyes jealous and pleading.

My heart lonely and bleeding.
The tears don't show.
The love won't go.
The mind desperately misleading.
The heart hopes.
The head copes.
The love known existent.
And I ... I am still persistent.
The night lonely, dark, long.
The feeling unaffectedly strong.
My head cautions,
The flow of wild emotions.
Life longing still,
in the still of the night.
The city lies dead.
The hopes have fled .
The lonely heart beats,
in the still of the night.

MOMENTS

Life is made up of moments
which usually pass or go
The moments that have gone before
Never come back you know
It was one of my wildest moments
When I fell in love with you,
your smile, your gaze.
Your hand was warm and friendly
It was then that my heart betrayed me
Things went out of reach
The world stopped to exist
MOMENTS
My heart vibrated in my head
MOMENTS
You became a part of my day dreams
We walked down the stairs
We became friends fast
And the friendship still lasts
But the moments that never belonged to me
The moments we shared
The moments that made my life
were never really there.
The moments we stole
The moments we never had
Your moments . My moments. Our moments
were unfortunately never there.

DESPERATION

Warm September mornings
Cold December nights
Soft wind
flows through
An aroma
A presence
A shadow
A feeling,
that you are there
On the beach
walking with me
hand in hand
on the sand
A feeling
I try hard
to preserve
A hopeless dream
Up against
a much dreaded
tomorrow
Moment of insane
truth
you can never be mine
Desperation
creeps over me
takes over
The fury
building inside
filling my eyes
with unseen tears
leaving behind
a broken pride
Life is a lonely voyage
Your thoughts
a hopeless taboo
Frustration mounts
I run out
in the rains
On the streets
in vacant hour
of midnight
Shouting your name
saying
I love you
Insane!

MISSING YOU

A few tender words are all I need
The love glances are missing
The privacy is invaded
The love is unfaded
your quivering lips
your smiling eyes
Our songs
Our words
Still haunt
my body
my mind
I'm missing you
And the loving that we are
habituated to share
The joy of kissing you
And your love full of tender care
Days - Weeks - Months
I'm missing you
Your kisses & hugs
Indifferent shrugs
Your touch
Your smile
And mainly
YOU

LOVE

Love sprinkled rosy dewdrops
on my heart
Just before it bled
just before you fled
And the stormy night
when you left me
It was raining
not only from the skies
The emotion was in my eyes
The memory scarred my yesteryears
And filled my life with unseen tears
Now the phase has changed
the peace after a storm
The storm lasted a life time
A love was washed away.

ONE NIGHT

Midnight
After two
Twisting and turning
Wondering what to do
Moonlight
All of me is
thinking
hoping
dreaming
of you
Sunlight
your shining face
Moonlight
your tender grace
Stars
your shining eyes
Heart beats
and sighs
as I lie
in my bed
when I'd
rather be with you
instead.
Your lips
tender like a rose
Waves form
as your hair blows.
Wind splashing the sea
Is it saying
something to me?
Just when my feelings were gone
like some dark night without dawn
And those years of pain
And still it's insane
I'm in love with you once again.
MEMORIES
The rains are falling
from the skies
Whispering to the heart
taunting the mind
The beach is empty
on a quiet Monday morning
As I walk alone
by the sea
With my own shadow
and your memories
The waves are rushing away from me
The rains have finally stopped
As birds fly away
The grey waters kissing the distant horizon
Are on a standstill
Love torn between my passion & identity
Stuck up in a timeless coma
of feelings and emotions
A Passage
A Period
of utter despondency
and
you

THE LOST TODAY

Sunrise and Sunsets
walks on the beach
talks in the trains
The sweet nothings
silent phone calls
Meaningful glances
That golden period
is slowly becoming
a vague dream
I never had.
The blurred images
of yesterday
merging into
lost today

CROSS-ROADS

Life's brought at cross-roads
Lost is the sense of recognition
The selfless love that was our life
The tender emotion that used to be love
The heart is torn with pain
Our loss was nobody's gain
Our action beyond comprehension
Our words insane
'cause life has brought us at cross roads
As each of us takes a separate lane

FATE

The smiles
The tears
The missing years
Unfulfilled dreams
Unknown fears
Your love unseen
My passion untamed
Our affair
"has-been"
Whom could we blame
I know
I came
too late
But then
That's fate

CONFUSION

The storm sweeping
my heart into melancholy
The love and tears
showering from the skies
My heart beats in excitement
and dances in glee
Simultaneously
Stranger things
life has done to me
Memories of my past
hits at my heart
As the future knocks
at my door
I stand confused and jealous
of the unknown fears
As I stand up
to open the door

PRESENCE

Last night in the gloom
of black darkness
I felt you
in my room
smiling
When you have gone
and its been a year
but the shadows of truth
still remain
The fact that our
egos clashed
long before
our heart's met
The communication
slashed
Our egos clashed
and only darkness
left behind
But you shall
remain unseen
in the shadows
and the recess of
my mind.

GOOD MORNING

Fine morning
Your conflicts
Controversies
Arguments
Hopes
Ecstasies
My emotions
displayed
Your feelings
did not sway
It was love
Yesterday
Tomorrow
Today
I love you
I want you
I need you
to be
For one & only
one person
And that is me

MAN

Every man?s an island,
(alone)
in sands of time
bleeding within
and smiling still
Searching (a friend)
The long search that
never ends
Every heart?s a desert
Bare and empty
a cactus within
and smiling still
Blowing the agony
with the storm
Destroying the foot-prints
of people dead or gone
Every life?s - a burning torch
burning on its own
trying to set alight
long dark rainy nights
Every dream?s - a sunrise
that man lives for - on and on
crossing the journey
in the dark
awaiting his personal dawn.

THE EVENING SAY IT'S FINAL GOODBYE

Red Sun
plunging into the sea,
Your blue eyes
burning within me,
Words that we
could never say
Emotions we
never talked out
And Today
when it is
too late
You?ve decided
to walk out,
In every street
I see you
laughing
Your lips
blushing
Your eyes
smiling
Illusions
Your voice
We met,
We talked
You complained
You teased
My anger
and your submission
Illusion !
I asked
You refused
You kept looking
still
Your eyes said
something
I knew you didn?t feel,
Stars are out
tonight
A tear drops -
A sigh
It's you, I know
My heart
won?t lie
In every street
In every alley
I see you
walking past
And my
heart blasts
This place will
become an
empty desert
after you leave
If only
you could trust
If only
You could believe
My heart won?t lie
The sun plunges
in the sea
And through the air
that PANAM flies
Before my tears could dry
The evening says its
final good-bye.

LONELINESS

Life's filled
with tears
tearing through insecurities and fears
The feelings left behind bears heavily on the mind
Utter loneliness
Love's torn between The head
The heart
and you
And it survives
in my heart
your eyes
our tears
and sighs
Until?
Oh! it always will.

FREEDOM

The bird flew at last
from one tree to another
spreading it's wings
and breaking free
Over distant hills
and mountains
which it first saw
loved and cherished
flying towards golden sunrises
over roses and daffodils
Not once stopping to see
flapping it's wings
and breaking free
The spirit sways in the winds
As it moves across green forests
and light blue streams
Flies over the distant seas
with sparkling sunlight
which glitters like gold
The heart jumps in glee
Over the cities and the bridges
the desert and the snow
stopping every while to
quench it's thirst
and flies away.
Wanderlust. Wanderlust.
Before it dies
and turns
like all of us
into golden dust.
The mountains
and the sea left
behind.
But the spirit wanders
as it sings
Let me be
Let me be me
love and hate and cherish the beauty
that is life
Let me see life
with my own eyes
Let me be
away from the chains that bind us all
and gently
set me free !

THE BLOODY WAR

Don't sit, Don't bend, Don't kneel - Suneal
Go out & fight
The war has just begun
It might be an eternal strife
It might be your final fight
It might be the end of your life
Stop not give it all you have got
Hit it with your best shot
Think of it as the best battle
You have fought
You will fight
Day & night
Come what may
Come what might
Don't sit Don't bend Don't kneel - Suneal
Go out & fight.

LIVING APART

You shall live in a part
of my life
forever,
You shall beat with heart beats
of mine.
As I walk towards
sunsets every evening
when the sky turns red
and nights when I
lay sleepless on my bed
On afternoons
when I smell
flowers fresh.
In the rains
when I picture
you outside
my window
your playful
smile,
your eyes,
your hair
Was I really there?
With you holding
your hand
in the rains
kissing you
on the beach,
praying for you,
living for you.
Selfless love
was it
between us !
Listening to our
favourite songs,
eating chicken frankees
and loving !
Our fights
Our arguments
Our love
Our hatred
Our stubborn
decisions
and Gate way of India
where we stood together
Well yesterday is gone
Tomorrow can never be mine
As I drown my today
in hopeless tears.

DESTINY

Fight not
Destiny my friend
You will try
You can't win
You'll lose
in the end
To conquer life
The worthless pretend
Fight not destiny my friend

OCEAN OF LIFE

In the ocean of life
with species of thousand kinds
I swim alone
-upstream
sometimes to a nightmare
which looks likes a dream,
And you can see me,
admire me,
love me,
touch me,
But not enter my life
which like vacuum holds
nothing within,
Cause life has passed me
long ago
Long before you started
living
And I feel old and ancient
And there is nothing
that I can live for
Nothing I can find,
in the ocean of life
and amongst species of thousand kinds
I swim upstream
to a dream
that can never be true
And even you
have do not recognise
me
in a midst of
two people
Where one is you
And third one is
me!

THIS IS LIFE

What happens
When you lose hope
And the pressures
become hard to cope
When the world turns
against you
And your life sees
no colour but blue
When your love
turns into hate
And you blame it
on your fate
When your dreams become
your fears
And there is none
who would hear
This is life
The colour is black
This is life
to defend you must attack
This is life
The eternal strife
This is life
it cuts through you like a knife
It seems to be love
and it seems to be happiness
But every time you ask for more
life gives you less
This is life
We come here again and again
to lose not to gain
It's a mess
It's a pain
It's a reality
This is life.

NOTHING LASTS

Among shadows of my past
And the future dreams
I am searching for my self
Which has been lost
somewhere unseen
Nothing feels real any more
My life is the ultimate
illusion
And It has been good
I am not complaining
But what is it worth
Will success give me inner peace
or the love that I have missed
since birth.
Will someone I finally meet
Who will make me feel complete
Cause life changes very fast
And the people you depend on,
the love you share
the place you live in
Nothing lasts

INSANITY

This heart, this lonely heart
of mine
has been burned out
of insanity
The haunted place
had a city which
was alive-once alive
has been burned down
insanity
Yesterday morning one voice
woke me up from
my slumber
I asked, "Who is it?"
"Your love-Your insanity"
You have been with me since
centuries, as a close
confidant
But nothing suits me
more than
My love-my insanity

ONE AFTERNOON

The crazy
March afternoon
heat.
The fan's not
fast enough
The soft breeze
is blowing-
the leaves,
The earth's
scorched.
A mosquito
bites me on
my leg
and I'm
devastated
I stand
in the balcony
gazing at the
empty road
which leads us
nowhere
I'm thinking
of you (imagining)
seated in
that fashion designer
class of yours,
talking to Reema
Sheetal,
Drawing among
the girlie - chatter
awaiting your teacher
thinking of me.
May be.
Reading Cheiro
and then your own palm.
getting out of
the college
awaiting a 84 ltd
Alas its 25 mins late
That?s fate
As Reema
invites you to her house
No you are not in the mood.
You want to go to
a quiet place
and think of me.
Call Dina and talk
about me.
Hope for me.
Pray for me.
Write to me
(You can't)
You don't have
the address.
Oh! my God
what a mess.
At last you're home
and the phone
refuses to ring
You are too tired
to eat the food
that Pinky brings
The evening brings
a soft breeze
as you stand
against the well.
Still hoping
for the telephone bell.
imagining me in
my long strided
walk.
entering your life
your heart
wants to sing.
An illusion.
Bored you return
home to your
empty bed
to spend another
sleepless night
I wish I was there
to hold you tight.
I am missing you.

LAST MEETING

Churchgate station
at quarter to four
standing by the bookstall
I am really bored
Waiting for you
as you enter the scene
And my heart beats
wildly within
I walk close behind
your back
A finger on your shoulder
you look behind
Smiles exchanged
A drink was shared
We take a empty by-lane
I talk out my confusion!
You tell me about
the days (in 6 years)
When you missed me
My happiness knows
no bounds!
Time flies.
I talk about roses
and you
About my past
and your family
Jokes and smiles
unaware of the staring eyes
Oh my God
its late
We walk (almost)
hand in hand
I smell your hair
But I can't promise you love
Because I've broken many,
We take the 4 ltd.
Back home
Its really late.
My stares make you
uneasy
We get down the
bus, separately,
I wait by the phone
your blank call arrives
I ring again to find
every thing is all right.
I can't resist seeing
you once more
And I come,
Our secret
safe
Our eyes don't meet
but our feelings match.
Goodbye.
Bombay city!

FIRST MEETING

Mayor's bungalow
I'm late
It's a bad habit
I can't break,
The pizza's cold
And you're there
We see the secret beach,
On a quiet corner
in Bombay.
We talk and eat
There isn?t an awkward moment
feeling or thought
It's as if we always
understood each other
And the six years
gap was never there
We walk We talk
on the sand
at 3 o'clock in the afternoon
I don't know
what I feel
for you.
But our meetings
leave me feeling
good and complete
for the first time
in 22 years.
And I'm humming
old love songs
with a smile on
my lips -As I return home
at six.

LOVE'S DEAD

Among the dead days
And rusted nights
Careless talk
And salvaged pride
A bloody war,
Two heart breaks
A red triangle
And the lust for life
Only timeless passion
left behind
Tender words gone
Tender moments left alone
Fallen leaves
among bare trees
Emotions have fled
The heart has bled
The feeling is no more
The care has gone
The Love's dead.

LETS BE FRIENDS

You go thy way
And I'll go mine
We've separated
Well that?s fine
The overwhelming passion
you felt for me
had to die
We are growing older
I love her not you
That's what I told her
Our love died sweetu!
You & your selfish ways
Me & my ego
It all had to go
It all had to end
And maybe if we look at it
We could be friends.

BLEEDING HEARTS

Why do we draw blood by
nailing our own wounds
to colour our own lives
to wash away the miseries
with scented knives
bearing the pain
living the shame
to tear our own hearts
to pretend happiness
& live loneliness

BLIND LOVE

Blind love is what I felt for you
You had passion
which came in as love left
leaving behind a void
hard to fill
Because I was true
and I was blind
Reassured that you were mine
When all you ever wanted
was my body
Which haunted you
night and day
You never loved me
I was a fool to believe
You could never be mine
Though you did say
Your lies were not hard to see
But I was blind
TRUST
Trust is hard to come by
in today's world
where betrayal is a power game
which we try hard to win
And it's a shame
We lose the love and warmth
and the childhood glow
No longer warm and friendly
I used to be
Cold & cruel
from life & it's blows
It's a shame!
Have hurt soft souls before
And everytime there were tears
I did it even more.
To add fire to the fuel
Yes I?m cruel
and a coward too
When once I was bold
Trust is hard to come by
And God knows I try
But betrayal is a power game
To win again & again
Instead of filling your heart with love
fill it with pain
To clean the poison inside
Which I try hard to hide
It overflows time and again
But one has to keep control
Once bitten is twice shy
In a world where trust is hard to come by

THIS NIGHT

Will this night never end
Will these dark shadows ever pass
Will we never land
from this flight of darkness
in the place where love had first
found us
Away from the midst of life
where enemies surround us
Will the dawn ever break in
Or will we live in the sin
of our had-beens
in the darker most chambers of our souls
We live here to hide
from the lights which are not allowed
Searching for the dawn outside
And when the glare does come in
Will we be able to withstand
the dawn at the darknight's end
I hope but fail to see
how love & light can
ever set me free.
Your soul haunts me by night and day,
Why do you care when you are so far away
You walk in my house in the spirit of night
And let the ghosts of our past
haunt our souls
Cause time won't fill the hole
that life's left in our heart
in our souls
In a world where we don't love
we just pretend
I hope this night never ends.

SPRING

Oh spring thy soul fills me with doubtful satire
Oh love thy touch brings me hopeful desire
Your smile like the morning sun illuminates my world
Your tear like hushed dew drops gives thy face an added lustre
Oh life thy sight fills me with congenial bliss
Oh life welcome to my world something is amiss
Come in fill it with a light anew
bring back the glory of fate
fill my heart with love so true
let not my soul know the mean of hate.
The rains have gone
The darkness has lifted
to bring us a new morn
Love has filled my heart
with joy
Lent radiance to my face
The birds white fly towards golden horizon
God ! I love the human race
Nature beauty and splendour
And the female gender
the flowers yellow
shine on the fresh morning
may more love & laughter
spring bring.
The taste of heartbreak is bitter-sweet
Sometimes afloat in nostalgia
Sometimes drowned in defeat
And the pain and agony lasts
for a life time
And every tear adds to the crime
It touched

SIR RAGHUNATHAN

May came to an end
And in came June
The time for school
Was coming soon
The thought of school
send a chill down my spine
'Cause our teacher was Raghunathan
which didn't seem fine
He walked with the
style of Travolta John
His talks sounded
like a Saxophone
His Science talks went over
my head
My marks in Maths made
him see red
He couldn't understand
what was wrong with me.
I couldn't understand
what he spoke to me
But when angered he
is a tiger wounded
For example when a fly
on him landed
Just when he was on the boil
The fly made his mood go
Further spoilt
And this Mr. Raghunathan
who wouldn't hurt a fly
Hit it so hard that
it had to die
When back to his senses
He thought a funeral for
the insect would be
justified
So the dead in his matchbox
coffin lay
was called upon to take
it's last ride
In the funeral Sir,
cried his heart out
and for two whole weeks
He forgot to shout
Good or Bad
Whatever be the kind
A man like him
is hard to find

THE SAVAGE STORMS

The blood red evening skies
The gloom of the faded twilight
The echoes of the blowing wind
The onset of a lonely night
A storm is heading our way
the storm is here to stay
The wind echoes memories my way
Memories
of enchanting eyes
that once betrayed
Time-
(backward) flies
to those fateful days
My heart beats in my head
My feelings are misled
Dream and reality meet
The wind stronger blows
The emotion wilder shows
Agony of my sole defeat
Realisation of which grows
The dream
that was once true
The reality
that was once you
The sudden gush
of memories
cloud my mind
Heart beats
pound in my head
Alone left behind
Before you ran
before you fled!
The pangs
of our past sorrow
will follow all the way
till tomorrow
The storm?
The storm part of my past
The dream that didn?t last
The storm blowing outside
The mind blasting inside.
The love
gone and dead
The heart
tears it bled
The leaves
in the air blew
The storm
inside me grew
Bringing to my mind
the day I first
stared at you
Where did it come from?
The Storm
The memory
that crossed my mind
The memory
that you left behind
My eye
caught your eye
Your blush
and your sigh
First glance was
indifferent
Next few were
surprisingly frequent
My senses warned me inside
It just seem right
My love at first sight
destroyed my pride
Your courage faded away
your confidence in me betrayed.
The blood red evening skies
still brings memories to my mind
brings voices to my ears
To my eyes it brings tears
And when
your hand I held
Then
my love you felt
How did it start?
The storm!
Storm stopped outside
The fire grew inside
Closer and closer
still I came
Who would take the blame?
Your hair
blew on my face
as I held you
one hand on
your waist
another on your
face
I held you tight
with all your grace
You lied !
You lied ?
You lied.
You said you loved me
And I was a fool to believe
You lied.
As I stroked your hair
In the dream that wasn?t there
I know you don't
but I care
I care.
I care.
The thunder in the skies
The fear in your eyes
Closer still I came
My passion set aflame
We couldn?t stop !
The Storm
You melted in my arms
Your beauty and my charms
Our lips softly touched
Your cheeks slightly blushed
Our lips fully met
And the wild fire it set
Our senses
on a ignite
On a wild, thoughtless
stormy night
The shock
from the vibrant touch
The breathless heart beat
made you insecure
and nervous
As you turned to retreat
I caught you in your flight
And held you tight
in the still of the night
Your eyes sparkled
and lips trembled
Where did it come from ?
The Storm.
I whispered in your ears
before you disappeared
Leaving behind doubts
distrust and fears
The storm
went on and on
The love
was dead and gone
My life torn apart
Crash!
Down went my heart
The storm passed
The love didn?t last
And all that
it left behind
fallen leaves
broken glass
and painful
memories
My world was broken apart
The storm crashed on my heart
Your memory remains a soft dream
which I couldn?t redeem
Our love was a savage storm
Me-I couldn?t reform
The storming emotional passion
Was it just another day
The rains lasted a life time
Our love was washed away.

MAGIC OF LOVE

Love is a soft dream
which breaks gently
like dawn
It colours your life
with a rainbow
and in your heart
puts a song
You walk with a
new bounce
And the world
becomes a better
place
Your thoughts revolve
around her
You just can't forget her face
She walks with you wherever you go
The birds sing. The grass becomes
greener.
Your emotion like river flows
And it shows

Poetry Post Tusiata

2005-01-26T14:45:00.000-08:00

POETRY AFTER TUSIATA

Naming Names
This is the place that I belong
Mark. Blue Crayon.
Isle.In Paper Cacti

Blue Sky Sin. Killawords.
Word Soldier. Tiger Bug.
Blank Shots. Cacti Juice.

Winds.nz wordwizard
Wild roads. Apple Rises.
Red Mustard. Suenil. Sonyl.

Syunis. Skit. Mark.
Word Warrior. Jet Blue Sky.
Rising Sands. Paperworks.in

Purepopcorn. Grasslands.
Tiger Cacti. Stray tiger.
Love a Tiger. Living dangerously.

Living on the edge. Flashy ideas.
Red chili. Wilderness. Wild roads.
Words Pic Me. Sunny mail. Copytiger.

Red Chili. In. Color by words. Tomato Reds.
Independence.in Renegade. OpenSpaces.
WildWalks. WildSkies. Footloose.

Wanton Sky. Tigerzinnz. Blue Sky.
TomatoStar. LadyBug. Tigeronthesun.
Leomon.in WordPickle. Redcactus.

Icetea.in. Sonyl. Sunil. Suneal.
Sundaymorning. Solin. Islet.in
Applets. Waterbuffalo. Suniel.

Ideasinaflash. Gobananas.
Red bananas. Endlessways.
Sledge.com Earthenpot.com

I really like to carry on
A sequel to wildblueskies.com
Is now blueskyfox.com

Crossing the Pacific
New Zealnd
Is the promised land.
A peaceful clan.

The pigeons unafraid

Walks in the park

The seagulls fly

Close to land

Oh New Zealand

A land of many clans

& lots of jobs, jobs, jobs

Bond N Bond + Connex

Chubb Security + First Security

Applications, Applications, Applications

And reject letter. One size fits all.

Sorry. Skills are good but in

This instance. Please feel free. Wish

You luck. Bye bye loser.

Economy is booming Immigrants happy?

Equal Opportunity. A rising mists.

Scientists and Doctors are taxi drivers

And Petrol Pumped Super Market attendants

A bloody myth.

Kiwi Experience. Can do attitude.

Won’t do for names that are not

Matt. Dick. Nick. Chris.

Wrong name. Wrong number.

Wrong color. Sorry.

No sweepers job. Or driver

Job. Or temping in Xmas.

Only large Whittecoll Santa

Stealing money from credit cards.

Let alone technical writing

Marketing guru jobs. Only

Shopkeepers that shout and

Young Maori boys and

old advertising farts. No.

Welcome. Kia Ora.

Saleable Crap

Where’s the fire?

Where’s the anger?

Discounts & Countdowns

Economy and Relief.

Growth and taxes.

Hopes and tears.

And millions of hearts.

About four.

Broken hearts

Charred. Scared.

Angry. Confused.

Walking Queen St

Bopping girls. Half boobs.

Shiny legs. Lipstuck smiles.

Cold hearts. Winston smiles

On Billboards.

Trying to calculate

crime rate and welcome

Foreign students.

Lost Yellow Souls.

Dark Day

It’s a dark day

The Korean Shop

Will overcharge

For condoms that are free

The Chinese lady will scream

On esteemed clients and customers

The kabab guy will go a Jihad in red

The Fiji Indian has Fiji hate for

Being abandoned in Otahuhu.

The Maori boy will abuse helpful

Strangers. He’s on P. on Pee.

On a bus to Lincoln West.

Paul will reject cause Paul

Hates the other Paul and

Takes it out on his students.

The Mormons will hope

In Manurewa in a large brown

Church in green skied grass

And Sesa will smile. She always

Smiles. Aries enthusiasm.

As the world wild goes further wild!
Oh Emma

Grey Lynn’s empty.

So is Waterview

The Savage and the Princess: Murderous Version

2001-08-02T14:39:00.000-07:00

Wild Blue Skies.

ivory mountains.
pine tree crystals.; towers. wild geese.
apple breeze. summer; palace. young Irene.
20. songs haunt; winds. Arts, pout
Iron. Gold. doubt.
eyes dark shiny.
Proposals refuse
"Heartless" haunted
truth Obscured
Clouded lies. abolished; hunting. king trusting.
servants spies. Irene; ride forbidden woods.
Eastern dark Sparks.

Savage heart. Callous.; sinner lived blinds.
ruled nameless gypsy; tribe. sabre words.; charm never wines.; dawn avenges waif .

hell fury's name.; out glory fame.
lancet blood red
lion untamed
bloody battle fierce.; lion killed lame.

Night after day.
day after night.
always same,
savage sword; blue bloody games.

hoofs thundered.
earth shuddered.
flutters savage came

night. Lost Irene.
heart fell waterfalls
Sparks arms. Luna; silver Fountain brown; skin tanned. kiss; wild flower. Cold; warm. charm. melting; life volcano burst.; love wept. cried.; They said goodbye.

Savage jumped palace
Swinging Oak tree.
Crescent. crown dismayed.; princess left - China.
“promise me Sparks
once just once; before I die".; "yes my sweet
princess i'll cross": The jungle desert
Gypsy dances
brought no pleasure.
six rains. Left
crossed boundaries wild.

67 days nights.
Froth danger, struggle; eternal strife saddle
free thundering
typhoons rafted
seas. Bleeding
feet knees. Out
of France Spain
Cordoba dark
churches white
sea gulls, rocky
terrain. wild
African land.
Morroco, Khairwaan.
Cannibals Witch
heads. Thick Jungles,
Zulu Masai tribesmen.
Crocodiles Phythons.

Lost. Unexplored land.
Marshes, African
elephants. Flies
sickness Rains
disease. Pygmies
Poisoned arrows
Unknown tongues
faithful friends.

Sahara, Egypt Arabia.
Nile Cairo. Camels.
Caravans. land of pharaohs,
desert storms
furnace sands.
Hunger,
thirst,
killing
him. did not die.

Jerusalam,
land of Christ.
Palestine Damascus.
Baghdad Persia.
Herat Ghazni.

Khyber pass,
Afghanistan.
mystery India.
Punjab Indus.
bleeding
sweating
aching
pathways wild,
Asia. Lion traps
snake pits. Gladiator.
Tiger leopard land.
had to hunt.
Himalayas, crossover.
Finally Tibet.

Monasteries.
Meditation,
Snowy terrain,
bite winds.
jagged mountains
dizzy heights.
slipping feet
icy nights.

dear life
Irene.
Dusted.
reached
Chinese soil.
Rusted
promised.
Mongol mountains.
rice fields,
con hats.
Wells. nights
rice bright
Chinese market.
Fireworks. lights
red. Yuan dynasty.
Marriage. Arthur
- Irene. A smile
tired eyes.
bloody clothes.
cynical smile

before light
with yellow men
played hide and seek.
mounted rode away.
hunted till Mid
Arabia. last seen in
arms by Abu Sheikh
Khan the camel boy
told his sixteen
grand children.

King Arthur's horses
Cui Hung's men
left defeated.
A gypsy folklore

married the savage
one rainy African
afternoon deep
amongst pygmy
friends. away
from eastern
dark, ivory
mountains. Love
found . monotony
bound.

Arthur dead.
Polo returned.
Yellow river red.
Love bloomed.